End it
I just feel so useless
I'm so unmotivated
I dont make any money
I dont help any of my family
I just sit at home, eat, watch movies and listen to music
Sometimes I just slap myself out of anger
Sometimes I just scream into a pillow
Sometimes I want to kms but I'm too p****
I dont wanna grow up into the person I know I'll hate
I already hate myself
I've tried to make changes but it doesn't work
I might be getting a job soon
Idek if I'll be able to keep it
Even if I can I don't think I can make progress in life
I dont really see a future for myself at all
And I know im only 19 im young blah blah blah
But im not f***ing far from an age that I should be moving out and there is no track I'm heading down
I want to go to school for audio engineering though
But life is just so confusing
I'm lonely and scared
And idk whats going to happen in my life
Idk if I'll ever be able to accomplish my goals because of anxiety and no motivation

I'm not even sad about this stuff anymore but sometimes I just wanna ditch everybody I talk to and be alone because I don't even know what I offer them anyways and I feel like I just take from them

My friend always asks me to go out and skate
I never do
I dont want to do anything anymore
All I want to do is smoke make music and chill
But its so unsatisfying
I dont know how to get out of it

Dont bother replying to this either tbh sympathy or advice won't help me I've talked to ppl about this countless times

I just wanna
Stop.
For once
Like just stop existing
I think it would be a nice vacation to just stop existing for a little while

Yeah

i ain't readin all that playa 😂

Lmao these kids I went to school with getting engaged and have a kid
I feel bad for those sorry vastards

i want to hear your music

Don't mind if I link you

F*** it