ur getting a lil sum for yourself fam, you deserve to feel a lil pride or sum

im silver

You need to realize that you are SUPPOSED to feel bad sometimes, yin and yang there must be balance. There's nothing wrong with you, you just have to let this time of uncertainty run its course but proactively do your best to stay positive and communicate with as many people as you can.

You'll make it bro sounds like ur having some success already

we all gotta start somewhere

Yeah I understand there is always a balance but 95% of the time I’m depressed and half of the time I’m depressed I’m thinking about killing my self

I been letting time run it’s course for 10 years now

Some rare W’s lately but thanks I hope so too g

Need my rare ws

U gonna get yours G 🤝

Op I would kill myself if I wasn’t such a p**** to do it we just gotta keep pushing

You gotta find value in yourself bc at the end of the day you’re living your life for yourself. Being in a relationship won’t change much, There’s been times when I’ve felt the same and thought having a girl would get rid of that feeling but it’s not a solution. You gotta learn to love yourself man or set future goals, something to keep you motivated

Maybe

this x10000

if you don't f*** with yourself you can't expect people to f*** with you.

loving yourself really does work wonders

where you getting a job at? post-bac psych related?

Not to neglect your post, because same.

felt this heavily, i do not like having attention on me.

Yeah after life is unknown and my parents would be sad

We’ll be straight eventually man

I know I don’t want to have a relationship where I pour all my mental health into them but I still want someone to show affection to and be there for me when I’m having my really bad days even if it’s just laying up for the day or sumn

I appreciate the words though fr

I’d be taking care of adults that struggle with autism; driving to appointments, routines, etc

ABA right? Pays well I'm tryna get in on that bc I graduate in a semester

The position is “Autism Spectrum Disorder Service Specialist” so it’s entry level work in the psych field and they said they’d start me out around $14 which is decent considering the cost of living in Ohio

Yeah I graduate in 3 semesters but you’ll be good G don’t stress too much about the job hunt. Who knows if I will even get this one

best of luck on your trails kub

I finished my psych degree 7 years ago but ended up teaching English instead of being a school psychologist, so take my opinion with a grain of salt:

Sounds a lot like dysthymia to me, and that's usually a signal that it's time to search for meds that do allow you to feel like a person. Have you had any good patches in the last 10 years or has it all felt basically the same? Considering your age, I'm sure there have been plenty of shakeups for you in that time.

The search for consistent satisfaction and peace of mind is long and difficult. It takes failing over and over, waiting for something to click. Failed meds, failed counselors, failed career paths. The reward comes in those moments where you do legitimately feel great. If that reward never comes, it starts to be time to consider what's going on with you chemically.

If you're not overly interested in therapy or meds, I suggest you meditate for a bit. Read about transcendental meditation, which is really good about honing in on your thoughts in a non judgmental way. If you really stop and listen to what's bugging you, you'll be able to come up with a solution.

Beautiful