At the rate s*** is going, I’m starting to think I’ll be lucky to see 50 at this point, that is if I really would even want to.

I've had really gnarly panic attacks since I was a little kid and thought I was going to die super young. I turn 34 in a few weeks, so clearly I didn't know what the f*** I was talking about.

Time just keeps on going whether you want it to or not. Enjoy it while you have some left and try not to think too hard about what's coming.

I did.
I thought I'd live till 30

But apparently this was because of alot of unresolved trauma since my kids/teen years where I romanticized the notion that I just wouldn't wanna live past 30, cause wtf is life worth?

Then I held onto this until I was 26
Was in therapy, healed, now I could say am a very f***ing happy af man
I love getting older and it's not like I could say "when am 45 I wanna have kids"
Cause am def not there yet

But I look forward to growing old and just making the generations after me proud af
That they'd look up to this museum I've created, what I've done and going to leave behind ya know
That is was all "worth it"

And that healing era was crucial, changing my perspective on me, life, age, time and the future

F*** it we ball

after just barely escaping death at 24 i’ll live forever

No man, if you stay alive another 20 years you'll be able to upload your consciousness to the internet

Just gotta make it through the biological singularity and it's exponentially closer every day

We’re here for the long run yall we’ll be posting on KTT4 in 2075 still no app though

On the dead guys nigga I aint going

My goal in life is to be a deranged old man, nothing will stop me.

i didn’t dream of being a bachelor u was born for it

love this bro

only cause of natural disasters

Thank u man!
Ppl gotta realize tng struggle is part of life, on way or another

Talk about it, with the right ppl
Nobody is worthless
Every second is f***ing worth it

Learn, grow, learn, grow

Appreciate every moment, even the worst
And try to create a future in your head that is positive so u have something great to look forward too
And it's the simple things, it could be walking ur dog, buying ur fav meal etc

Cause when I was depressed, it was even those SMALL THINGS that made me dread existing and I was like;
"Damn I used to love this, why can't I even enjoy this no more?"

Cause we forget to appreciate

I look around me, folks in they 20s
All so egotistical, all so bitter, projecting their confusion on others
I think to myself;
U have everything, it's not like u been homeless? U are eating clearly? And u look showered?
Why are u walking around so mad, at the world, at people?
Ur basically creating a self fulfilling prophecy of self destruction
Cause u refuse to c the good, only when the good happens to u, ur happy

But seeing someone smile makes u pissed...

No wonder age catches up to u, time catches up to u
Before u know it, ur 45 and bitter af wondering why u last smiled in high school....

U good bro trust

2 billion years of evolution put in work

Felt. Hard

I'm f***ed up, homie, you f***ed up
But if God got us, then we gon' be alright

why u think i aint saving for retirement

Cus we never retiring

ngl we're probably cooked

Politics and weather got me thinking the same

I keep thinking I’m going to die

i don’t think about growing old but i don’t think i won’t either. im just planning 5-10 years at a time and making the most of today.

wish i had this mentality, part of me is so scared of being broke again i keep socking away a ton of money