How a friend described it to me is basically:

• not being in touch w feelings
• uncomfortable w intimacy
• trusting yourself and not expecting anyone to be there for you
• easier to complete projects than get invested in a relationship
• needing space / time alone

I’ve been like this forever but this behavior made me push a girl away and I wonder if I need to work on it somehow

That’s avoidant personality disorder
And fortunately I dont. Some traits of it could be attributed to introverted personality types as well.

I'd say i'm in touch with my feelings, intimacy is fine though i keep it private mostly. But the rest I definitely have, probably to my detriment at times and i've had to compromise with people to meet in the middle

Nothing like some good p**** to really feel like a man

Yeah

Alone in every home

It's not necessarily a disorder tho

none of those are bad at all actually, your friend is either a girl, or a feminine dude

I constantly and violently alternate between a quite extreme anxious attachment style and an even more extreme avoidant attachment style because after being socially isolated through much of my youth, I want nothing more than to have companionship, but I am terrified of being rejected again.
It sucks!

no I'm just introverted

I relate to all the bullet points except not being in touch with my feelings

I wasn’t always like this though I feel like, I started off less guarded but due to rejection and not fitting in I became way more guarded over time

Lowkey tbh

i've struggled from this. I think due to my parents showing no real affection to each other and their children. It really took until my first real relationship to let my guard down and become more vulnerable and intimate with someone.

damn r u me

If it’s a disorder half the men I know have it

I also think it has to do w my parents relationship

It’s the first romantic relationship you witness

Feel like life season is repressing back to peak covid days… something weird happening

I said that.
If it is it’s a mild case of APD
If it isn’t it’s a very introverted personality

Sounds like the norm ?

Edit: Yeah nvm just Googled and this is the opposite of me

mercury in the gatorade

Yeah and it’s killing me

I don’t trust nobody

My career is probably good for life as long as I keep up what I’m doing, but can’t stop working hard and trying to level up.

I hate spending time with most people

I push away anyone who shows interest in me. Automatic cut off if I think you like me in anyway. Especially if you tell me you like me.

I don’t wanna be like this but idk how not to.

Oh well. Ima get rich and hopefully I’ll feel better

Yea been feeling and acting this way since my breakup w/ my ex. Tryna get out of it but my trust in everyone's at an all time low rn

ya

yes this is me