it's been going downhill ever since first year of high school. covid hasn't affected me in any way mentally. a few months ago was my first suicide attempt and now i'm kept under supervision by my parents. can't lock a door, can't stay at home alone etc. i
f i by any chance go out, i gotta check in with them every 30 minutes.
i have extreme shame over my failed attempt

also i have strep throat rn i can't smoke so fml

I feel cool as a deep sea cucumber

Man, my emotional and mental well being is like "📈📈📉📉📈📈📉📉"

It feels like a never ending cycle. Some of these days, I just feel like getting a bullet and just ending it all. Then there's days where I feel super confident and I'm on top of the world.

F*** no

in some ways yes, in others no.

And you’re as funny as bugs bunny

Do you post in bodybuilding thread

Lmao nope

Nah

i feel terrible lmao

was in a dark place end of 2018/first half of 2019. Had finally selected a day to get up outta here... skipped class and stayed home to accomplish and I get a call from my mom who NEVER calls during hrs I have class! literally not once in 4 years

knew immediately it was a sign.... opened up. went and got help and have been feeling amazing ever since.

thought the pandemic would f*** up my good progress but NOPE still feel awesome. To anyone in here struggling, I'm living proof you can make it through. Do not make a permanent decision over a temporary situation

No. Just had a mental breakdown now. Woke up my entire family.

Was a long time coming I guess. Tried to cut my face with a boxcutter in January and entertained the idea of applying pressure to my neck with a belt too. So, I guess it feels good to finally let it all out.

not at all

my problems were never related to the pandemic tho so

oh brother

close to getting full time job offer hopefully by end of march s*** has been stressful as f*** but I think i'm in the endgame now

Lmao real

this is your world we are just living in it bro i dont ever want you to forget that

if im not posting im in the lab cooking some utter bullshit so U tell me

I’ve accepted I don’t believe in love and it’s helped me be focused.

I can’t make friends irl for s*** and mostly cause people are stupid, fake or both. Finding a relationship for the same reasons too. Debating just getting rich then getting a dog.

I was pretty good most of last year especially once I settled into pandemic life

November-start of this month was f***ing hell, worst time of my life

I'm sorry. You shouldn't have shame over it.
I think most people think about suicide at least some point in their life. You just happened to try and go through with it. I came very close to suicide from my OCD around thanksgiving and ended up in the hospital for a few weeks. New medication and therapy have been pretty lifesaving. Working out, meditating. None if it is a solution but it all helps. I really believe it gets better, at least I think it is for me right now. Even knowing that I can always go back to the hospital if I ever get in that place again is very reassuring. I wish you the best.

some days yes

some days no

waayyy better.

Life has been good with a few exceptions but God's gifts are too great for me to belittle them