I feel like killing myself now that my love is not here anymore, my house is a mess, I had not been taking a shower, I have not been going out, I have not been eating or praying. I don't know what to do I feel like ending it now.

Be strong

Allow yourself time to heal and grieve

Do the little things and take care of yourself

Your life no matter what is worth living

please take the night to rest, and call a therapist tomorrow.

Walks and a day at a time really help

When you don't feel like praying, that is when you should pray the most. Prayer isn't just worship, it's also a simple conversation with God, who is always there for you.

Terribly sorry for your loss. Everything you're feeling is perfectly normal... hopefully you start to feel better soon.

Sorry for your loss

Sorry for your loss OP

i cant even imagine the sort of pain you must be feeling

losing someone is horrible especially if its the person you loved the most

but sadly its the reality of life, nothing lasts forever and our time here is temporary, theres an expiration date on all of us

i hope you get to grief in a healthy way, i hope u have people checking up on you and i hope you make it out this slump

the pain will probably never fully leave but itll be easier to handle with time

cherish all the times you spent together, keep them close to your heart and soul so you can remember them forever and be thankful for all youve experienced

one day there will be acceptance and you will be able to move forward in life, seeking new experiences and positives in your own life

its what your husband would have wanted, keep his spirits with him and youll keep the idea of him alive forever

time heals all, you will not feel like this forever

i wish you serenity

rip to him

Sorry to hear!
If possible maybe retreat yourself with family or friends, just so u escape your environment abit, cause I can imagine your house is filled with memories

Memories aren't bad, but u need time to process it all without overloading so u can focus on you again, without being too distracted or engulfed by the environment and the emotional reaction it causes

Don't be afraid to speak! Anything that's on your chest, let it go
If u wanna cry, let it flow

Again it's important u just let go of it all, instead of holding it inside

Also maybe, if strong enough, get in the habit of finding a routine, just to keep yourself active and thinking
I can imagine silence is the last thing you want to face

Again sorry for your loss! Life is cruel sadly reflect on all the good ❤️

@op

Call a close friend and tell them where you at in terms of your state of mind. Don't do anything rash. You have a lot to live for, and I know it doesn't feel that way rn because you just lost someone, but please, please, please hold on for him. Hang in there. I'm sorry for your loss. It hurts, yes, absolutely, but just hang in there. Speak to a therapist. Whatever you do, just know that your life is precious, and is worth cherishing.

I’m so sorry. Knowing the pain of losing your love unfairly, it’s like your heart is breaking every second but I can’t imagine how much pain you’re in with someone you vowed your life to being gone. You deserve nothing but love and a peace of mind. There is no advice or attempts at improving mental health in the world that can soothe that pain

Please don’t go. Think of his face in front of yours, holding your hands and kissing your tears away. Hear his voice. He will always be with you ❤️

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine what that'd be like

@op I lost who I thought is my person for life last year (not dead, but she abused my trust so much she might as well be..) it has a way of making nothing make sense anymore.

I think you reaching out here shows that you feel a need to share yourself and get help. it's hard, but do try to open up to the people who love you and a therapist about how heavy you feel. it's important to let these thoughts out of your head to stay sane.

I also find that it's so much harder to fight giving up when you're starving yourself. order yourself some healthy comfort food rn, treat your body with something healthy and notice how much more level-headed you'll be afterwards.

something as traumatic as this is the same as a physical wound, but ofc more tricky because it's internal. you'll need to be patient with yourself and let yourself heal from this. it's not a linear path but you will heal with time.

if you're living completely alone now, maybe consider moving in with family for a bit if that's possible just to not be left to yourself feeling like this. posting here you're most likely still very young and still have a lot to look forward to in life once you make it through this horrible time.

my thoughts go out to you 🫂❤️

My condolences

We love you OP. Even something as trivial as this site can make you feel better by expressing yourself. People let us be your outlet if it helps

Sorry to hear that love ❤️

Damn, RIP to him

Take care

this site brought a lot of comfort to me when I was going through s*** @op Please don't be afraid to share

My prayers are with you

Hope this can make u feel better

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sending love and healing energy

he's always in your heart

Music is inspiring

Hey if you need anyone to text lmk my DM is open to you only just tag me since I’m on mobile nowadays .. I know how this feels