I busted my ass for 3 straight years and got nothing in return for it. Can’t even make sense outta life anymore.

If I fail at my next thing I would b pretty much done. I felt like I had to sacrifice my time to grow something but it just all got f***ed over. I could’ve went a whole different route man. I feel like a failure. Can’t get a job because I didn’t go to college, in debt, broke, making s*** wage rn.

F*** man, I’m trynna to find the meaning of this and the light. I’m nowhere near depressed but I’m f***ing frustrated.

The amount of dedication I had to this s*** only to wind up in this position. I put a lotta s*** on hold for achieving that goal man and it was an absolute mistake. Now I gotta climb myself outta this s***hole. F***in family screwed me over, friends aint s***, why am I surrounded by so many f***ed up people? They all just wanted me for my gifts. Now I have nothing but f***ing debt and am damn near homeless.
I hold myself to a high standard and because they were my peers and we grew up together it seemed natural that they’d keep their word. I see no point in pursuing anything anymore.

I feel like I set myself back like 5 years. Could’ve just been a square bear and went to college, did that route. Sales job, went that route. Peace Corps. Etc. But I decided to help those closet to me. Yea build something with people, the same way billionaires did. Why does that sound so f***in simple. Why was I the only accountable mfer in this. Dawg I’m 25 and still at my parents house bro, shoulda been moved out, started a family etc. I’m single and have 0 desires to bring someone to a house that isn’t mine.

I spent all of last year getting a job. Nothing. Unemployed all last year. Couldn’t move out because of that. Now I’ve spent my savings and am f***ing broke. This year I’ve picked up my camera and decided to make s*** happen. If I f*** up my actual dream of being a filmmaker, I’ll literally have nothing. It’s hard to give something your all when all you’ve netted is backwards results.

That’s my life rn.

im not gay but dont you wish you could get f***ed by doing nothing? woman have it so easy
im laying in bed rn n i could be getting f***ed while i post

What’d you do for three years?

I been there.

Finally gettin out of it

It actually isn’t but thanks for thinking everything’s a joke.

Pasta is well known Thai shut obscure

Zoomer

you a fool for this

Having one step in the past and one step in the future pisses all over the present.
Life hasn't begun for you yet. Make it yours bro. Life can be anything you want it to be

do you think school would help? start at a cc and see how you feel; network super hard

I needed to be reminded of this

Who told you you had to do all that by 25

Built a solid brand but when it was time to scale, people disappeared left n right. Also took s*** deals. Bro, the first year I wasn’t trippin, didn’t make much. Was mostly a learning year and establishing everything. Second year, had huge projects that were mine but the mfers just disappeared. I ended up not doing that, took this one massive project and pm did that solo. What required 6-8 people I did myself. Had to because we had another project that had to be taken care of. I knew not to do that other project as it became a constant headache. No sweat, get paid call it good.

Now my ‘dream’ project. It was all good until these mfers brought the wrong product. It cost me $4000 and we ended up having to do this s*** ourself. Overall, I was supposed to make ~$350,000-$400,000 and was pretty much trynna to break even man. It only worked like that due to the type of project we were doing. One has 0 overhead (Outside of basic supplies) while the other is a full bidding process.

The last year, 2018 I made too many sacrifices. Was still locked in and ready to achieve something. Met this really good girl, was supposed to travel to my friends wedding overseas, had a speaking engagement etc etc. like everything was making sense. AGAIN IF SOMETHING WENT WRONG IT DID. Ended up losing all three of those, lost the girl, no wedding, no speaking engagement (at work because this mfer was a no show for a month). On that very last project, I gave it all I had and priced it so that I could live off the earnings in 2019.

That worked! Sheesh but, I couldn’t get a job. My photography skills weren’t up to par to get clients, had to again build from the ground up. That leads us to march 2020.

Myself man. I had a lotta good things going for me and thought that this route would only enhance it

It’s good to have goals and expectations but if it doesn’t work you don’t have to beat yourself up over it. Life isn’t as simple as having a plan and it going how you envisioned it.

True, overall I picked a field that had too many variables and moving parts. It required more bodies than myself to be successful. I leaned on my elders “wisdom” but all they turned out to do was talk s***.

Same with peers our age. Everyone’s either posturing, playing the 48 laws of power or is flat out a f***in bum. I get pulled down because I didn’t realize how f***ed up these people truly are.

They’re just used to not holding their word. Thank God for making me who I am and having the patience to stay calm.

Funny bro bc when I need a hand these mfers are nowhere 2 be seen.

I have to hold myself accountable in terms of communication and leadership.

I can’t help the fact that I busted my ass to achieve s*** and mfers around me just slacked off.

Like even when I was doing music. So many ops for my crew to develop and grow. I did my part, everything that was asked of me I came thru. As “artists” they became flaky and switched their sound. Sabotage at its finest.

Thanks, Definitely gotta network super hard. The events are starting this weekend so hopefully I’ll get to meet new ppl and continue to grow!

Went to cc before all this happened, it was coo, might go back once financial aid is paid off

Don’t ever forget what Hannah Montana told us: Life is what you make it, so let’s make it right.

I was about to quit my job, but you just reminded me that others are going through worse & I need to keep collecting these checks.

Dig deep man, you'll figure s*** out.

If I was a woman I’d have no less than a billion dollars in my accounts at all times

Bless

op i mean this in the nicest way possible, but you need to get it together. you can do it. stop doubting yourself, just stop. change your mindset and it will manifest. you don't get anywhere with a negative mindset and you will be stagnant in life. stop looking back on what ifs. the decisions you make are part of your journey. don't live life with regrets, focus on being better today and what is in front of you. you are only 25, plenty of time to figure things out.

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Never do stand up please