as-salamalakum

the state of ktt2 lowkey in shambles, yet I'm still attracted to the choas

there's a fine line of irony, s***posting, taking yourself too seriously, and schizo posting (both genuiene and use as an ad hominem) that we walk everyday

my marijuana, caffine, and nicotine addictions suck, tho i don't want to change that even though I do. my feelings are never static.

i do have faith tho. -ali 10102023

my thought/words/opinions bear no weight on how the world actually works/ran

i want to be important enough for my words to stick with someone

very egotistical, especially knowing deep down i know my actions stick with others as well, and I should be proud for that

but in actuality i feel

-ali 10102023

niggas gossiping about war for moral/intellectual superiority as opposed to findng justice/peace is unethical behavior and iprobably shouldn't be trusted #freepalestine all day everyday

the world ain't black and white but sometimes it is

f*** i need a newport 100

-ali 10102023

diary of a

i be poppin' bottles

sparkles and champagne

-CJ SO COOL 10102023

btw, i love you Kodak Spice, your prescence brings me comfort whenever im on here

<3

Using the bathroom at work

Might try to leave early

-ali, 10102023

i feel like a creep clicking this thread! But the diary not even juicy. Spice it up.

CutiePieHole (a member I recognize and think I like) said my diary wasn't juicy

As I sit in the storage shack hitting my vape, I wonder how do I make it more interesting without embellishing what I'm doing at the moment/compromising the intent of making this thread

I figure give them a sense of hope that these will be a more consistent avenue of expression for me and hopefully they can relate and see me

I dream of being a memorable KTT member people see and are like "aye, there's cuh'" but alas that's idk the word for it

-ali, 10102023

I'll talk about doing cocaine, molly and shrooms in one night while watching a gay dude smoke meth in his motel room

But not today because I'm still processing what possessed me to do that (Jager)

-ali, 10102023

relapsed again the other day

i know i have a problem but i chose to get f***ed up anyway

someone once said at an AA meeting how people always told him "oh, sober you is so much better than when you're drunk" and the guy was like "but sober me is the one making the choice to become a worse person"

which honestly stuck with me

inshallah, I will beat my addictions

-ali, 10152023

deleted social media and set up a web blocker from ktt from 945 am till 1015 pm

idk i need/want change, accept what you can't change but change what you can type s***

might release a song idk

-ali, 10152023