Ngl nigga make like Jesse and have music every time that I am by me self...if not music some muted dialogue from a terrible movie I keep (John Woos Face Off ) or some long YouTube essay vid about my favorite trivial things, anything to distract myself from the waves of thought and depression...does this s*** sound familiar?

swallow the hard truths

nah i will just blankly stare and dissociate

What if that's a well trodden path?

not anymore but fs i used to

if u cant be alone wit ur thoughts u aint trodden s*** bruh

Face your thoughts
Then the negative ones will resolve and positive ones have more place to shine

If u keep burying em or look for ways to ignore em, they'll only grow bigger as will ur fear of em and this trauma will explode eventually

Life is negative and positive
Must face both

No I need to a***yze and self reflect in order to improve

do you smoke? stop

I stopped... it's no d*** problem, just me

I disagree plants I've been here so many times before, but now I just don't want to, is it even possible to grow weaker...

idk bro im startin to have mild hallucinations now so I think I was just supposed to be an Oracle yknow? but instead im just some guy in the developed world tryna get by. its like the tide bro it just comes and goes and well, if it aint comin or goin then guess its time to go make it come yknow?

whats kinda music do u like these days i always got music on tbh

OP what number are you

Im wrking on it

Y’all need to go to therapy

My thoughts are pretty serine

Pray and practice gratuity. Be where your feet are

Yes all the time that’s why I like working tbh

I used to

Now i love it

Still have the hard moments for sure though

Practice meditation my boy

Meditation is the key

Your mind should be a sanctuary, not a place to run from

Meditation helped with this

But yes it’s hard

naw i b big vibin when im in my thoughts but i smoke weed all day tho

They say to fight your demons
But I’m embracing the darkness
It called upon me
I’m willing to take the path of most resistance
Creating the balance is the goal
There’s longing desire for something different
A much broader connection
One that universally aligns with the spirit
Not clouded by judgment
But studied
When we create our realities, it is by touch of emotion - energy in motion
Energy put forth
The urge to act on something is emotion
Way we carry ourself is emotion
But there always comes friction along the way
Chaos, destruction
The choice to either wither away or flourish under the circumstances
I chose the former but it was much later in life I began to realize how I can use this to my power
The shadow cast over me had taken its toll instead of wallowing I let it take over, channeling this energy to express my deepest desires, repressed feelings, enhance self awareness etc. in the name of self development
Without the pain there is no conscious
Without the dark there can be no light
There is no denying it
You only prolong the suffering
Own up to your shadow self