I’m stuck working retail right now, so, you know, it’s not great.

what do you do?

i feel like doing anything you have no passion in on a forced schedule is one of the most miserable things you can feel

I like my job. It is difficult to stay motivated though

i work on machines all day it’s pretty fun tbh

Yeah I spoke to her a while back late last year on linkedin explaining my situation but didn't look like there was much she could do to help me and I didn't wanna press too hard. But maybe I should ask again and reiterate that I'm still struggling... No harm I guess

yea exactly, it's that middle of the road trap that I've struggled to put into words. Ive got a decent amount of experience of 3 years. But I'm still not meaningfully far enough into my career to be committed to my area. I can change direction if I want but that confuses me and it'd likely take more time to work my way up, say if I wanted to move to cyber security. That's assuming I'm even able to get my foot in the door. And the time taken to do that as well of the opportunity costs of what I could've done instead with that time. So it kinda feels like I fell between the cracks a little bit

We're pretty much in a very similar scenario.

I appreciate the support. I'm lucky that I'm still relatively close to my brother and close to my 2 sisters. It's just my wider family that's more or less falling apart post my grandpa's passing. Issues that started to bud before I was even born tbh so there's only so much I can do. I got my own problems like feeling hopeless and trapped day in day out since late 2022.

For my career I honestly have no idea what's next. That's exactly what scares me. At this point it feels like what's next is determined by whatever job I get out of the many that I've been applying for. Which is not good. Ideally I'd like to do something im interested in, where I can learn and grow to my hearts content (instead of being discouraged to learn) and actually interact with new people within a decent distance of my age. I hope that comes true.

Would rather keep it vague if that's alright just because a lot of my posts have identifying info but I work with code

Tml what u work as?

Thx

Content creator/social media manager for local businesses mostly. Still growing client wise but its been going well

Just thinking more, I literally spent like 30 mins in the shower because I was just standing there thinking without even noticing...

I peeped that recently I just feel really bitter whenever I see random people having the opportunity to learn and develop. I live in a busy area near a school and world famous university so I always see students and its weird but it just makes me even more depressed. Like I wasn't even concsiously doing it but I noticed I do.

Like I noticed I feel like I wish I could go back and avoid the mistakes that have happened (even though everything that I've struggled with so far has been out of my control). Im just missing that feeling of hope in my life. Hard to put into words.

Its really weird since obviously y'all don't really know my personality type but I'm really friendly and I rarely carry anger in my heart. But this development has concerned me since it doesn't feel like me. But maybe it's just my hearts way of telling me that's something's wrong and it needs to be fixed....

Only issue is that it's out of my control ATM, all I can do is keep pushing and applying for random s***.

And I know I'm using this as my blogpost but I just can't help it so I apologize in advance 😔

You can still go back to University fam. Nothing is guaranteed in life except death. Those same young people can die before you. So it's never too late for anything. Time is a social construct.

I feel privileged to actually enjoying coming into work. Good pay, we shoot the s***, debate, laugh, maybe get some food and go home.

quit

quit

yeah I did this for 5 months and quit. f*** that s***...

NEET life! Putting my life savings on black

Lowkey been thinking about doing this, I graduated with a degree in comms but am considering going back to school or doing a bootcamp to learn computer science or something. Pay in comms lowkey sucks and it’s mad competitive with little opportunity

quit

honestly the best skill to have is going to be AI prompts

didnt the nvidia ceo just come out and say computer science jobs are all going to be automated?

my last work made me most depressed person ever

I already finished university 3 and a bit years ago haha, I don't think going back would help. It's not really the educational institutions per se but more the prospect of even having the opportunity to learn and where my life was at the time. If that makes sense.

need this, happy for you brother

its really quite easy too, our company runs about 2-3 new employees a months, they come n go

just don't know what else i can do