Huh

wym that’s yaboicarl

I’ve always been too shy to try, which is not a good way to be. If you grow up and you’re praised a lot for being special, rather than for making an effort, you end up later on in life being afraid. I would get into situations — and I have to watch myself still — where I don’t even want to try because if I don’t end up being special, then I don’t value my own effort as much as I should.

talk about it queen i feel you

Crazy crazy, back to this Fiona album

She explains the backstory of every song on the album
vulture.com/2020/04/fiona-apple-fetch-the-bolt-cutters-songs.html

The title track has been stuck in my head.
The album has a timelessness quality to it but I wish the production was more layered which tends to make multiple listens more fun. Her lyrics are astounding tho and I guess that is the main focus

I have never heard a song by her. How lucky am I?
I'm about to check this out

there are plenty of layered moments throughout the album, but she was going for a more stripped down, rhythm-centric vibe on here anyways

There’s so much strange stuff going on in the background of this record. Bells and dogs barking, chanting, meowing. Where did these sounds come from?

Honestly, I would press “record” and I would get so nervous and I wouldn’t have planned out what part I was going to do or what I was going to play. I’d just be like, “I’ll add something. I’ll do whatever I feel.” So I’d press “record,” and after, I’d scramble to find drumsticks or to pick a keyboard, and most often I would forget to close the door. So the dogs would hear something and they’d bark, or something outside would happen. But then I’d play it back and I’d feel like those barks kind of worked. It didn’t bother me.

Relay is so chaotic I love it

yep

title track is really hitting today

So fuxkin good

Yeah, after 3 listens I can definitively say this is the best album I've heard since Blond or Black Messiah.

The first 3 💀💀💀

Damn she's flexible

Once we decided to release it early, it was like, “We’re going to need the art and the lyrics really fast.” David Garza did the cover art. I just sent him that one little center picture, which I had taken two or three years ago and put in a little file in my phone, as the cover photo. That happened for Extraordinary Machine, too, with the picture of the flower on the front. That face is very much me. I just wanted to be like, “Hey, guess what? I’m back! Here are some songs. Want to listen to the music, huh? Hi, hi, hi, hi.” It just seemed like me.

Pretty much the vibe I got

If there is a cohesive statement you’re trying to make with this album, what is it?

Fetch the bolt cutters” is probably the theme of it. I know in The New Yorker piece it says something like, “It’s about not being afraid to speak,” but it’s more than that. It’s about breaking out of whatever prison you’ve allowed yourself to live in, whether you built that prison for yourself or whether it was built around you and you just accepted it. For me, it could be many things — including breaking out of this image that the world told me I was and that I actually believed. That’s the sad part.

The image they painted of me is actually part of my belief about myself, and I can’t help that. But I’m going to kick it in the face as much as I can going forward. And also for me personally, I’ve been scared of what people think of me, I’ve been afraid of trying to make an effort because people will say I look stupid doing it. I love being in my house, but I’m not going to stay here out of fear anymore.

When this social distancing is over, are you planning on changing that specific part of your life?

It’s not like I’m going to go out and have a party. That’s not really me, but a little more, yeah. When I was a kid, all I wanted was to go out and do things and be with my friends. And since I wasn’t invited or because I was told I was too intense to be friends with, I learned to make that my comfort place. Sometimes that goes for depression too, like in my song “Heavy Balloon.” You get dragged down to the bottom so many times that it just seems like that’s the safest place to be. Otherwise, people are kicking you down there. You might as well just stay down there and make a home because it’s safer here. At least this way, I don’t have to feel the way down all the time. It’s no way to live. So I guess the message in the whole record is just: Fetch the f***ing bolt cutters and get yourself out of the situation you’re in, whatever it is that you don’t like. Even if you can’t do it physically.

for some reason I feel like Mac miller would've been a great collab with Fiona

this is what I needed on my 5th listen now

really digging this album. the songwriting, delivery and percussion are all so on point. my favourite track so far is probably Newspaper

the rest of the album is really good as well. I love the cynism of Ladies, the misleading ease of Rack of His and Cosmonauts powerful buildup

the stuff she said about depression in regards to heavy ballon is so relatable
great f***ing interview

Can’t wait to listen to this, The Idler Wheel is one of my favorite albums of the last decade and I highly highly recommend it

2002 also had two 10s tho