Im almost 32. So yea
I'm in a lot of debt but keep spending.
I'm gaining weight
I'm unsure of my 3 year relationship
Still, I guess it could all be worse
Slightly, recently. Still working this rinky dink job, no steady woman, s***ty apartment. Constantly sending job applications is a start. Hits different knowing I’m about to be 30 soon enough. But we’ll see how things turn out
rinkydinkjobbros...
Im almost 32. So yea
I'm in a lot of debt but keep spending.
I'm gaining weight
I'm unsure of my 3 year relationship
Still, I guess it could all be worse
Hitting your 30's and not being content with your life really is a bummer, I feel you on this one.
I get no hoes, I have no friends, I been getting fat lately, I got real serial killer vibes, when I cut my facial hair I look like a pedo, I give creep vibes, always scaring the hoes but s*** nigga the hoes be scaring me
Telling it like it is man
F*** it tho u would be surprised a lot of niggas dont get hoes
I get no hoes, I have no friends, I been getting fat lately, I got real serial killer vibes, when I cut my facial hair I look like a pedo, I give creep vibes, always scaring the hoes but s*** nigga the hoes be scaring me
Just remember this 💯
The thought would haunt me of my kids seeing that s*** one day.
Very slim chance
When I am high I always am super self aware and remembering all the awkward moments in my life
I get that thing where you’re having a conversation with someone and in the back of your mind you’re imagining the conversation from their POV and it’s so painful.
You stumble on a single word and it’s over.
I realized that for a long time I was trying to maintain an image that I really had no reason or want to try to keep up and being lost in that idea of who I should be was holding me back from living my life and enjoying myself. Kept holding myself up to bullshit standards of masculinity for really my own pride or enjoyment or whatever. Really came from insecurity probably. But like years yknow
thats f***in dope bro, and now that you say it like that I can remember a few times ive had some similar revelations, like where i discovered the true source of why I was behaving in a certain way
Just remember this 💯
Nah I ain’t broke, just not living my g
Telling it like it is man
F*** it tho u would be surprised a lot of niggas dont get hoes
As I’ve gotten older I realized it’s a lot more guys like me out here than what I imagined
Nah I’ve had it all my life and it truly holds me back from doing a lot more than I should
I get that thing where you’re having a conversation with someone and in the back of your mind you’re imagining the conversation from their POV and it’s so painful.
You stumble on a single word and it’s over.
Facts
self-delusion is a very important character trait to survive in this world
self delusion or making your own reality
My life went wrong when I was 11
Want to amend this
It went wrong earlier, and there wasn’t one reason, but rather a long series of small mistakes by both myself and my parents
11 or 12 is just when I estimate the tipping point to be where I had to (unknowingly) start playing catch up as I had already fallen below my potential
And this is all a compounding process
Hit me when she was on the phone crying and yelling asking me why I was doing what I was doing and I was forced to realize that maybe I wasn't the victim I thought I was
Yep when i was 23 and realized i cant have kids because i do s***work online
ur older than me???
Stop dwelling on stuff like that. It ain’t healthy
‘until you make the unconscious conscious; it will guide your life, and you will call it fate’
-Carl Jung