I am hard of hearing (HOH) which for those who don't know the lingo means I am deaf, except I wear hearing aids and can function relatively smoothly in most hearing situations. I lipread to comprehend oral conversations.

The problem is the covid 19 has taken a toll on my mental health since I can no longer work the sales associate job I had in a clothing store because of the mask mandate. I made the decision to resign and find more suitable employment in a warehouse. But my time here is even worse. My mental health is declining. I've been smoking weed and watching p***ography like crazy.

My resume sucks, and all the jobs I've done up to now have been part time and I usually leave after a year, with the express purpose to go to school and earn my degree. It's been nearly 10 years folks, and I am still screwing up. None of the jobs I've applied for and prefer to the one I have now are calling me back.

My parents would support me in going back to school once my head in clear and right, but I can't help feeling a bit hopeless. Like what's the point? Clearly the point is to make money and survive and be happy, but it seems so far away now.

What can I do? I don't even have enough money to sign up for a gym membership. What can I do?

find a job doing something you like doing

They require qualifications which I do not have

s*** man I would start writing

specialization- if you wanna make bread you need to specialize in a operation that you can profit off of.

Happiness is easily attainable if you apply your strongest characteristics and & interest to this specialized job

it does take discipline and work but thats not new news rite

1stly get your head clear so that you can further embark on the mission of being your best-self

then pick up a book and learn a specialized task like an Automotive Technician for example-- take 100 hours and learn the gig, get a job to get experience, and fix cars at home on the side; making hella bread for your service

Do you have a planet fitness close to you? If so I will pay for yearly membership for you.

feeling like you are behind your peers can be incredibly difficult OP just know we are all on different paths

also look up wes watson for some wisdom, 10 years in the pen and he still made it