I been lonely type guy all my life and it seems like I do better alone because I get discipline enough to work on stuff and s***. If I start to make friends and going out I lose focus and go on a binge of drinking d**** etc🥴🥴 this s*** hard bruh

i mean make friends whose idea of fun isnt binge drinking fom
all the discipline in the world don't mean much if you cant share your hard work with at least a couple people

nope, try again

Every time I share I always get used for money wise etc . It’s hard to trust these days man

they aren't friends then

Idc , what is it in your opinion?

boundaries are very important so its good you realize that
"no" is the most powerful spell of all time
but still, i'm speaking as a former 0 friends person who now has 2 friends, its worth it to try and find a couple good ones
you dont need to overextend yourself but also dont close yourself off to others

U literally said smoking was giving you anxiety like yesterday lol

Exactly. Live life responsibly but do so while living a life you actually enjoy.

You right hmm I might start over again and see how it goes. Thx

people have communities to support, families, entire social networks which depend on their labor. obviously most americans cant relate but yeah, thats really it. if you wanna find meaning in your life than find some people who can depend on you and vice versa.

americans gonna be butthurt about this but the community i saw in western europe and the parts of asia I traveled/lived in was monumental and made me realize how much I dislike american culture

had the exact same awakening when i finally opened my eyes to the rest of the world. those communities can exist here, we just have to create them.

nah f*** all that im tryna move to France brother

wish i had that luxury. not that france is my first choice but anything beats this country lol.

yea i got blessed my wife has Irish citizenship so it makes moving and living anywhere in the EU so much easier

Sunny days wouldnt be special if it wasnt for rain

real

life is both fun and suffering. one cannot exist without the other.

Getting anxiety becsuse its windy asf rn, and i cant light this blunt 🥺

Lmao

I understand that but I’m saying like jus do what u want pretty much

I love it but sometimes it feels like u living a double life man
At home im this energetic,social boy who commits to his high level of sport and follows his music dream,im also this outcast but they don't shun me for it

When at my girls place or friends place,we are more so into heavy partying, experimenting with d****,just enjoying life ya know
Taking walks to 4am in the morning or just going out partying till 7
Over there its a different regime and i feel looked at differently
More "respected" and adored

And its this relation between the 2 that can be very killing at times

Cause when im home,u just wanna go back and have fun,u miss it obv and dont feel like ur being you 100%, that ur hiding a part of yourself

But when u there,u think about home and realize u need a break from this reality before it goes downhill

So at times ur ultimately seeking conflicted goals and specially with d**** involved this may result in very dark chambers of self reflection and u eventually crash

this should not be so relatable