My motivation is at an all time low...

Been on unemployment since Dec.

Been looking for IT jobs, had like 3 interviews so far and no dice (got another one tomorrow), not even sure why? I'm more than tech savvy enough for a damn level 2 position, let alone a level 1 one...

Last summer I was hella motivated to study for Sec+, get on my school work n s***, now I never feel like doing anything.

Then my car started having catalytic converter issues in like the last 2 weeks, s***s on borrowed time til I get that fixed, and I was already trying to save for fixing the lower control arms which are pretty shot too.

I just wake up and wait a few hours until I can eat some edibles or smoke some weed and get high for a few hours, then just watch s*** on YT or play video games. I hardly even get high anymore cuz of how high my tolerance is so it's just a pit of diminishing returns everytime I smoke or consume weed

Tried to start a IT business, but don't know where to find leads.

People I associate with or know me have little faith in me outside of my immediate family. They just think I'm some dumb stoner bro (lets face it, I am)

I dont even know how to keep connections with people anymore. People come and go just like the seasons, except they don't come back.

I constantly feel like people think I'm a weirdo, or I'm a douchebag, or I think I'm too good for them or something.

Seems like I'm repulsive to most people.

Broke asf, and yeah, I been up all night. Gonna prolly sleep til like 4 or 5pm.

Once unemployment runs out I'm just gonna go to some dumb ass temp agency and find some s***ty job that, through all the s***tyness and grinding, motivates me to just do better.

Hope to God my car makes it that long...

All in all, I feel pretty empty. All the time. No cheering up, no breaking down, just a looming worry of various things in my life, which I adequately suppress by just feeling... nothing.

Feels like my family is cursed. S*** didn't pan out for any of us man. Im the youngest in my family and Ive f***ed up the hardest, by far. The last brother to make a difference in the family's lifestyle, and Im going out crashing like a mfer. If I died tomorrow, the song Lifes a B**** by Nas would be the literal embodiment of my existence.

S***s wack dude

the ebbs and flows of life fam

you’re down now

you’ll be up soon

During the COVID summer (and even last summer) when my finances had me feeling like a baller, I was in a much better place.

I know s***'s a sinewave, but man, when will I break through to the next level? It feels like I almost get to the end of the level, then I die and have to start back over from the beginning.

I feel like I'm so close, but it's just smoke and mirrors.

Keep your head up bro, you gon be alright

They just think I'm some dumb stoner bro (lets face it, I am)

have you thought about stopping yourself from smoking?

Look for government IT jobs bro

get ya interviews and applications up. just a numbers game.

Gotta get a job @op and keep it

he just like me

U have to build some positive change and gain some momentum. Start off with something very small like eating healthier, going for a walk , working out or even just fixing your sleep schedule. After that then just keep on upping the momentum and building positive habits. Before u know it you'll be back up.

Put the weed down for a bit too. It can definitely numb u

Work on your interview skills you dont sound very confident in yourself and i bet it comes out during interviews

I prob get high more than you do and im doing good af i dont wanna brag so imma just say its all mental

I went to my interview for this job im at rn stoned af

it's a process man the more positions you apply for the higher likelihood it is that you'll be employed, as others have noted it's a numbers game.

i'm out of a job rn and just slacking on that motivation part once that's correct i'll soon reap the benefits.

Big L

If you want to change, first stop using d**** and playing video games. Be honest with yourself and identify why you can’t get a job, then adjust accordingly. You are not cursed, that is a negative mindset

Getting a job is not hard, Im talking IT jobs.

I have no certs, only experience since I was a teen

Yes

There are not very many IT opportunities around here, hence why I'll probably have to go back to some dumb ass factory til I get the Sec+

I cant do that. I like being able to chill with low pressure. Also cotton mouth makes me feel like a dummy lmao

and then he'll be down again

Between 23-26 I was lost as MF. I feel you OP, in fact I still work s*** temp agency jobs rn, honestly I'm kind of insecure about it because all my friends have really good jobs, but I do have a particular goal in mind so it helps.