After 9 PM my brain turns into a whole f***ing f***ity f*** and everything that crosses my mind isn’t nearly as good as rainbows and unicorns

It’s funny because at first I wanted to avoid them, but it’s just like, wow another day thinking about suicide mid university journey
And cutting weight is making them worse
Gang am I cooked

Intrusive thoughts are a b****! U are suppse to embrace them and not push them out, and they will happen less.

IMO the key is to allow them to happen but try to truly process them and don’t let them become you. Easier said than done but getting trapped into thought patterns is dangerous and they can easily leak into your waking hours as well

Bro is staying up way too late get some sleep!

I already know my brains working pattern, this mf thinks he’s playing 3D chess with the master of retárdation Nice try Brain

You’re fine family. Just find distractions. And how long have you gone without sex? I know long term that won’t be the answer but short term it’s what a lottttt of people need

18 almost 19 years and counting

This starts at like 2pm now

If you just started college it gets better that’s a very anxious time

S***and exercise are important been helping me a lot recently

I only wrestle, wake up wrestle
Eat, then lift weights
Then wrestle some more
Then lift weights again
Turbofan and then sleep (dream with wrestling)

What are you wrestling with? What are those feelings telling you?

Wrestling teammates at the gym
Those feelings are telling me that what I’m looking for something that doesn’t exist yet and I’m working my ass off for nothing

This s*** 24/7

I can flip at any moment

How does “wrestling” with “team mates” at the “gym” make you feel?

sometimes it feels like youre spinning your wheels for months which is normal because honestly most of life is boring but write down your thoughts and ideas and paper and you might get some more clarity and your days might feel more impactful

I should live more adventures, it’s always the same routine and it’s driving me crazy, I’m this close to leave everything and live in some island

Like an empowered black woman in the body of a uni student, nigga how you think I feel? Exhausted

😂😂😂😂😂

I'm ngl getting drunk and high has kept me surviving for years