The past 2 years have been nothing but a tough time for me, dealing with an abusive on sided relationship with my now ex cheating girlfriend, being addicted to amphetamines and uppers combined with alcoholism, being diagnosed with a form of bipolar disorder, friends moving left, broke as f***, getting into fights, being so alone, doing terrible in classes etc.
Been sober off pills 4 months. Don't drink anymore. Left that stupid thot and been smashing baddies. Just this week I landed this job and I really love it. I love being there and the people around me. for the first time in my entire life I am comfortable in my own skin. for the first time in my life, I feel free. I wake up everyday thankful to live another. I wake up and feel that I have a purpose. for the first time in my life, I actually love myself again.
I just wanted to share this on here, I've been a user since the infamous Rodeo target leak thread and this website has helped me figure out a lot for myself in life. The hidden message: when things go bad, they are bound to get good. real f***ing good.
happy to hear this
Glad to hear that not everyone's lives have gotten worse in the last few months. Good for you, OP.
The past 2 years have been nothing but a tough time for me, dealing with an abusive on sided relationship with my now ex cheating girlfriend, being addicted to amphetamines and uppers combined with alcoholism, being diagnosed with a form of bipolar disorder, friends moving left, broke as f***, getting into fights, being so alone, doing terrible in classes etc.
Been sober off pills 4 months. Don't drink anymore. Left that stupid thot and been smashing baddies. Just this week I landed this job and I really love it. I love being there and the people around me. for the first time in my entire life I am comfortable in my own skin. for the first time in my life, I feel free. I wake up everyday thankful to live another. I wake up and feel that I have a purpose. for the first time in my life, I actually love myself again.
I just wanted to share this on here, I've been a user since the infamous Rodeo target leak thread and this website has helped me figure out a lot for myself in life. The hidden message: when things go bad, they are bound to get good. real f***ing good.
Good for you man you can only go higher from here
im so proud of you man. i can relate, went through hell and im finally living good.
s*** will never be perfect, but we will never give up.
keep leveling up king
for anyone who feels stuck like I was, let me give you some insight.
I am in no way religious. My family made me get confirmed all of that, but I never really believed in God at all.
When I was at rock bottom I had a maniac episode and left my house running at 4 in the morning. I didn't stop until the sun started rising, and I came across a very large field.
I fell to my knees bawling. I couldn't take life anymore. I then put my hands together, looked up to the sky, and f***ing prayed to god the first time. I remember exactly what I had said no lie it was:
"God, I don't know if you are f***ing real or not, but please bring positive change into my life or I don't know how much longer I can continue. "
I screamed to the sky for help from "God" and no joke two weeks later my life fell back into place. for those who need help, not to sound corny but seek the lord.
disclaimer I am not a Jehovah's witness or affiliated in religious sacrement at all