It sounds like you're one of those dudes who values women based on how other people see them. Everyone has a past.
Sling good d*** and pretend to listen to her talk and you can be her future yadigg
Get a goal bigger then a girl n a girl who can't afford not to be w/o you will follow
Just confidence man if she wants to be with you she will ignore every guy in her dms you can’t live life looking over your shoulder all the time and let your insecurities rule you. Being jealous and insecure gets you nowhere. Worst thing to think is girls will hop into the arms of any guy with more money than you and better looking because females are more complex than that, they’re still people bro they’re not monsters. You get s***ty people that would do that but not every hot chick is like that.
You got to be your own guy and feel yourself. Don’t hate the world, don’t give up and don’t put the blame on anyone else. You love yourself and she will love you.