I always thought i would be dead before 25, even when i was a kid i thought i would be dead by 25. I never been able to see a bright future. Like the farest ive been able to see have been my summer vacations.

And i feel like with this mentality im setting myself up for a early death. Some people have big plans and see a bright future for themselves, i cant do this.
May have to do with me getting robbed a lot, even when i was a kid it happened a couple of times.

Starting school is hopefully the first step for changing this mentality, and I be talking to this girl im really into, the best part is I that I have known her for years. She even be guiding me and she even told me to stop hanging out with my criminal friends, and she convinced me to not get a gun. Shes cool tbh. Shes not really my girlfriend, like we make out but we aint exactly a couple. I dont even know what we are, she been helping me out tho.

How can i change this mentality tho? should I set small goals or big 10 year plans of how tf

Joke’s on you, we still alive.

i think i should stop listen to rappers like kodak. These rappers cant have a positive influence on me.

U can do it josue

Find something you're passionate about and will make you want to work towards it.

um nobody plans for the future
its called being poor