you'll get through it fam. Have no fear. The outcome will be rewarding

debt collectors on my head

sorry for your loss.

angry/anxious/broke.

but i know this is only temporary.

Been thinking of moving into a monastery unironically

Thanks man. Never experienced a death like this idk how to handle it. Work today was f***ed

Thank you. You’re right

been taking a bunch of Ls recently

today i legit manifested a hefty speeding ticket, during the drive i was thinking about being pulled over by the cops and how f***ed it would be to get a dui. legit 5 min later i get pulled over. sign from god to watch what you think and always align your thoughts to positive outcomes instead of negative ones. need to start journaling again

I’m so depressed

Someone talk to me pls

what’s on your mind

just broke down over feeling lonely. i’m a lone wolf being lonely has never gotten to me, i love it. but as i’m getting older, it’s starting to hit me. i have a lot of brothers, all of em at least 8+ years older than me, all of em have wives/fiancés. idk. last night i had dinner with like 6 couples and their kids, i asked if it was ok to not have kids, they all said of course, but to me that just speaks about how bad a father i’d be. don’t know if i’ll have kids, but i want to be able to say i’d be a good father. i hope they know i need time.

i hope i make it in time. f*** i just hope i make it. hope is absolutely useless though. work

I want to cry but the tears won’t flow

There's something that you must understand inside you before you be able to let it out.
Try to talk to somebody and I'm here if u need to

Sounds like it or depersonalization (honestly still struggle to understand the difference). I've experienced it a couple times for a week or two and it's definitely an uncomfortable feeling. Like you're watching a youtube video of somebody going through day to day life with a gopro camera on the top of their head

but i dont even know for sure if its that. But sometimes i be at work and looking at my friends there (i have known them for a year) and i think things like “this aint real - we dont actually know eachother.” and s*** like that. Im actually really close with some of them but sometimes its like i dont know them.

Sometimes i be talking to my friend of 7-8 years and feel like “we not actually talking rn its not real” i cant even explain its a weird feeling man.

felt this

L after L I guess I’m a loserr

been a while but i want to die again

What’s on your mind?

a lot.

i'm graduating this year and gonna be a doctor. i guess i should be happy but honestly i'm more depressed than ever. don't wanna be a f***ing doctor as i'm gonna be working more hours than ever, for pretty average pay and i'm gonna be f***ing s*** at it too.

plus, i flunked my last exam, a general trend in med school, so i'm gonna get sent somewhere absolutely s*** to do my foundation jobs, just as i finally got settled in my university city. bye gf, bye friends. life is too f***ing cruel man

plus my health is awful too, i'm in pain everyday

i don't get the point in staying alive man, everything would be easier if i didn't wake up tomorrow