recovery

I get s*** like this now

For f***s sake, I hope that’s some troll and not someone you see on the regular

unfortunately it’s a whole community rabid against me.

I think it’s important to self-reflect and hold ones self accountable.

I am not always the victim, I am not always the hero. I have been the villain in multiple stories, I have been a piece of s*** to some people.

I have patronized, I have lied to, I have made stuff up, I have mistreated, I have flat out ignored people I knew. That s*** sucks. It sucks and weighs on my mind whenever I think on it.

I don’t think most people purposely try to be the bad guy, but sometimes the actions we do put us into that role.

And honestly I have flat out been the bad guy and ruined decent people who didn’t deserve it.

I want intimacy. I crave that s*** so bad. I hope, I get what I want soon..

And I wish I could say I fixed it with all of them. When I’ve come to the realization that I was wrong, I’ve tried to reach out.

I’m so grateful to the ones who did, even though some of them absolutely resent me. It’s the ones I can’t reach out to that stings the most.

The only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes. Grow, mature, be less selfish and move forward. In way, this helps heal it somewhat. But some of my own demons have certainly been self inflicted.

This isn’t about anyone in particular, as some of my stuff is. This was spurred on by a video I saw of a guy taking responsibility for being a POS to an ex. Got me thinking of times where I’ve been the bad guy.

I miss it alot

sigh

debt

@dotM update disc link

@Drogon_ can you create a fresh link fam?

I am

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I need to get a new therapist.

discord.gg/rRxaxtrh

does this work bro

Yeah but the invite expires in 7 days

discord.gg/KzQ2qAv7bB

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Fixed