look at the sky

im still here

ill be alive next year

i can make something good

Got a white scar and melanin isn't returning. Got me depressed. I've completed given up on self improvement

Paralysed by indecision over simple s***. Can’t get control over the most basic things. Feel like a social pariah with every move I make.

never no point in self pity

Three days ago I had a mental breakdown when all my delusions came back to haunt me

I'm at a point in life where I know anything besides food, water and a place to sleep is a luxury I shouldnt be obsessed over

still, I'm grateful for all the extra gifts God gives me

this the type of attitude we need

Worst part about lexapro is it really f***s up your s***drive

Oh man I just started lexapro I’m on my 5th day

I was gonna go on trintellix but my insurance company denied it

The amount of people that have come and gone in my life really makes me appreciate everyone who stayed.

I miss so many people, I hope they’re doing okay

i was in a car crash last year where I almost died and since then I've had horrific nightmares and anxiety anytime I've had to be in a vehicle since seeing a therapist soon fingers crossed

I got a job recently

I’m going back to the kitchen it’s either that or sell d**** kinda happy because I’m feeling productive again. I like kitchen environments too everyone talking s*** super fast paced I ask them for a really high wage because I’m certified but they met me half way so that’s good.

I've barely eaten in 3 days. Feel absolutely s***, it's tough man. I know I got a good sister and mum who are supportive, but it's so f***ing hard to tell them what I'm going through now. Or not even now, bit for years. Loneliness is the worst f***ing feeling. Years of this s*** l, I got no one.. Hardly any friends that I can call up and see.. Went fro a walk along the beach and seeing couples at night together kills me..

i really really really regret doing that s***

I’m sick of myself.

I f***ing hate it here

i’m f***ing terrified

So tired of this s*** why can't I just be normal this s*** is tiring

What do you even do in a situation where one moment you wanna die and the next hor you're completely fine and so on
Like what is the solution there

God I cant wait to blackout tomorrow on some bars and Russian standard

i just checked my dms and theres one there where im asking cats if hes okay cot damn bruh that s*** hurt to see

try therapy. or try removing stressors from your life that make you feel horrible and try only doing things that make you feel good. i did that recently and its helping a lil youre gonna have to force yourself at first but youll start enjoying things and finding joy in them at some point.