I used to feel like this sometimes man. My parents used to be at each other’s throats ALL THE TIME. Sometimes I would stop eating dinner and just go sit upstairs when they would start. Also I never could get interested in school, so I would also get yelled at for that.

Find your inner peace man, no one can take that from you. I can walk through almost any situation now a days and barely be phased by the negative stuff happening around me.

Hope you start feeling better soon!

Hope you guys are having a good week!!

The longest period I ever been without cutting or even having a breakdown . I don’t like having people having that control over me anymore

Always fam! Stay level headed nothing lasts forever

stay up fam. keep on the path, and its okay if you fall off the path as long as u working to get back on. we lit.

no rush. baby steps are fine

first day without weed and it's been tough

I don’t know anymore bruh

Without a doubt, today has been the worst day of my life since my ptsd moment 14 years ago. I’m never going to f***ing forget this

I might have to step down from my project I helped build. I made a bad call that lost people money, I didn’t have to but I refunded people that came to me and I sent over $10k to try and cover them. I damaged my own brand, I damaged my project image maybe. I cried. I lost my own money on it too. And it came at a really bad time. And I haven’t slept since 8PM yesterday, it’s 3:48PM right now.

I want to not exist. I just want the past 24 hours to have never happened. I’m so sad dude and I haven’t told anyone irl cause I have no one irl that would get this. I’m f***ing alone. Nobody that’s even on my side would give a f***. They don’t care. I just want to not exist, truly.

Optimistic vibrations atm

Wish I wasn’t here .

Cannot escape this s***

Been extra depressed the last month and a half and can’t shake it

Everyone at work is noticing cus they’re asking me what’s wrong and if I’m over whatever I’m upset about

I’ve never openly or directly told anyone IRL “I have depression” so all I reply to them is “I’ll get over it eventually”

But that’s the issue..... I’ll never get over depression. It’s engulfed me completely

I can’t lie I been down bad for no reason, straight suffering. But I know it’s just my past actions of doing s***ty things catching up so I’m not even gonna try and get better long term wise ima just keep drinking and popping the pain away cause that and showers the only type of comfort I get now until I fall early. It’s just fate

I lost my project and a s*** load of money in the same day. This is the bottom.

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep. I’m laying in bed trying to mentally figure out how to advance. How to wake up in the morning and proceed. I got nothing left to cry, what’s done is done.

I’m going to try and watch Russ highlights and hope it lights something in me I guess.. I’m lost again

Can this end already? Damn

I need friends lol

Stick with it. Was very tough for me but I broke through after a few weeks, it’s possible keep going

I feel so awful

I really don't think i can do this anymore

I was just unlucky i guess , life didn't like me from the start