Yeah you ever just not try to get with someone, just because you can’t take the rejection.

I very much can’t stand rejection even though i am aware of why someone would.

I just get so depressed. I can’t stand it in any circumstance.

I don’t like the feeling of being left out intentionally so i distance myself from people so they can’t do It to me.

I never drop complete contact though

Had MAD mommy issues growing up and prob wil never go away but me and my mom are on good terms now as adults.

my birth mother rarely ever contacts me, she never calls on my birthday.

I deadass forget she exists sometimes.

My step mother been my real mother for the longest.

Yeah, well.... I will when i’m out of the house and doing my own thing.

I don’t really wanna argue with my parents on seeking a therapist when they’re unreliable in terms of how they see fixing mental health issues with religion.

I don’t really trust their advice on things of that nature.

I feel trapped in a box that i put myself in and won’t ever escape.

In the moments of withdrawal i wouldn’t say that i’m always knowingly doing it, i think i have become more self aware of when and why i am doing it.

I wouldn’t say i am unwilling or unable to change, i just feel that no one wants to be around someone who’s putting on a facade a majority of the time and if i unveil more of my insecurities that it would just be a downer.

So until i feel more comfortable and secure i actively distance myself from people, and maybe it’s just my own insecurity and or secretly i am right in that i am not as welcomed and as much of a friend/partner to said people as much as i think i am.
So in my defensive nature instead of seeking out that answer, I reject any further advancement of said relationships with people

I don’t know if what i wrote just made any sense or not

There’s some things I think could be attached to me. Others I’m not sure

Especially the feeling of abandonment, identity, and depression.

controlling my emotions is there also. I have a hard time with it.

Being a parent is hard. No body’s perfect I’m sure every parent has made mistakes raising their children have to forgive them at some point

This doesn’t apply to everybody situation obviously