I’ve been making music for a whole decade and now I don’t have any interest in pursuing anymore

I quit my job, I left college, and knew this was the passion I had

How many drawbacks can somebody take before realizing that maybe what they once had big dreams and actual goals for are pointless in the long run

Can somebody help me please, I’m passed the depression phase. I’m lost af

I’m not meant to work in retail

You can go back to college

the thing is I don’t want to end up being apart of the broken music industry, whether underground or mainstream

for something that was once therapeutic and medicinal for me, now feels like a burden to make and emotional hurts at time

college is designed to keep you a worker, and time is not a factor in my decision making either

Do something else nigga.

any other things I might be good at is only subpar for my talents, and it doesn’t make me any income nor joy

Everyone works bro

Well you gotta make some income the way you know first my g. I’m all for following your dreams but u can May need to put that dream on hold and really think about it

but for an already established company quick to replace you, no thank you
I’m not built to be brainwashed into a mindless robot

Why is so you think every company is quick to replace you? You’re either brainwashed or a bad worker

I used to work as a shipping and receiving clerk for the #1 hospital in NY and the internal structure of their management team was sketchy and very selfish

I’ve seen people been set up and blackmailed, just for favorite workers

So no, I’m not brainwashed. I’m just not willing to kiss ass or witness it being done on any scale, especially surrounding personal issues

Having the talents and people wanting your talents go hand in hand when it comes to financial support

I’ve had multiple people want to use my beats until I added value to myself

You can’t take one experience in the dog eat dog place that is not only a #1 hospital but also New York. Everyone is not a snake

that’s where I stand as of now
everywhere I have worked is literally dog eat dog, just not substantial enough to make a living wage, or both

I believe I would have better fortune in another state, however I would have to be able to afford to get there and live there

Wow OP that's not very Eminem like of you

“ the thing is I don’t want to end up being apart of the broken music industry, whether underground or mainstream”

damn right it’s not
especially not after that trash album he dropped

You sound like Rachel McAdams from The Notebook rn

Make sure the music works out and it’s the only option

this is the problem
niggas think being grown means getting a job or making money by any means

while that is true for means of survival, just because I’m grown shouldn’t mean succumbing to basic means of living with literal hopes of getting better opportunity elsewhere

Well idk how to help you bro sorry

OP, how old are you?
Go out there, discover the world and you'll see there's plenty of opportunities.
Even if you don't want to work as an employee, there's enough room for innovation and enterpreneurs.

I want society to change but here we are
So I’m just stuck and lost

F*** Nicholas sparks