Nah CTE aint gonna help. Grappling might.

@op

you too

Its not literal death, more like curling up into a ball and realizing that the birth defect and literally experiencing what it felt like to be in the womb

Asperger’s?

You ever try alcohol?

That's good to hear you've cut drinking, I have as well and it may cause the effects which you spoke about in OP which match the side effects of a lower dopamine baseline or GABA rebound. GABA can be supplemented as well as its precursors, there's a lot of things you can do to get yourself back on track. I suggest talking to your doctor though you can also just ask Chat-GPT for more info on how to recover.

thats depression @op !!!!!!

highkey

If you struggle with addiction like me, i suggest finding a group

AA and NA might be excessive but maybe a university sponsored treatment group

Dont wait till its too late

@op if u ever wanna talk hmu on ig i gotchu

Fight people at bars

noooo not my welshman like this....brother i am in pain for you

i'll bounce back man welsh dudes are built different

Just a bit challenging right now

bro i'm like 120lb tops 😭

Do I got you on insta dude? Been trying to cut down, but I'll be down for chopping it up

Yessir ill msg u as reminder

Might just be seasonal depression. Just gotta get through these cold dark days my man I’ve been feeling the same way since winter hit

People will still fight you

Consequences of doing too much d**** I’m ngl.

If you dont care that much just say f*** it quit work scrap as much $$$ as you can and travel the world for a year and see how you feel after

that's anhedonia brother

i will have something for you soon

pushing shrooms and grappling....thats p****...let him box man...

serious gym wont have you in the ring anytime soon anyway and once they do not against someone who will hurt ...