This s*** just feels so hopeless i really wish it wasn’t this way

I really just want to leave and start a new life i hate everything aroubd me

We talk you cry and nothing changes

how do i recover from this. why am i taking the hit for people. someone else step up for god sakes. how is it that everyone around me can live quietly but me

If I was never diagnosed I would've just bought a gun and killed myself already

what a garbage couple of weeks

Man I really wish I even had 1 person I could call a real friend who I could talk to about stuff life f***ing sucks I lowkey wanna die from this virus i'm ready

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Almost time to stare at the ceiling

I was about to try to kill myself again until someone texted me minutes before. Crazy how things work

No point in killing yourself takes too much effort

I've tried plenty of times before. It's effort putting in the research on how to do it but it's worth it to leave this garbage life

I would agree but you should have hope man don't do it fr

I have about 1% of hope left which is what keeps me here but i'm not gonna lie it I had access to easier methods of suicide i'd be long gone by now

I feel ya man i'm way too much of a p**** to do anything but I definitely get it

Death doesn't scare me. Pain doesn't even really scare me anymore. What scares me is the fact that the 1% chance of things getting better exists and I might be giving it up for no reason

Yeah than hold onto that s***

i'm only 15 so there's still some hope lmao

oh s*** wtf you're young as f***. Please dont make a decision like that at that age. There's definitely hope for you. Go seek help or reach out to someone. Like now. I waited too late

yeah my family is a bit crazy and I live in a country where I can't speak the native language and I have crazy anxiety and s*** from family stuff I don't wanna talk about I woke up to a panic attack at 4 am i'm sure it's nowhere near what you're going through but everyone has they're own problems

Trust me I know panic attacks. I keep a knife by my bed cause I think someone's watching me 24/7. I got bipolar disorder with psychosis. I'm completely anxiety ridden.

Just please try to get help soon from someone before it gets bad like mine is

I understand we are prob being watched 24/7 lowkey tho

maybe not watched but defenitely recorded

I don't care much about being recorded by like my phone or something but I see what you mean. I'm just really paranoid due to untreated illness. It's crippling