Crazy how if u have one serious health problem u basically got no chance to be successful

now that I realize it I think latuda could have took a lot of my feeling away. I stopped taking it about 4 weeks ago and I been having mad brain zaps. Doesn't help I was also having headaches from benzo withdrawals

Me and my mom got into a scuffle months ago and kicked me out been living with my dad and grandpa. Got no real friends and my mom has my dog and won't give it back. Just turned 18 4 days ago She ain't even say happy birthday

I’ve lost a really close friend and it honestly has me terrified and scared

This is someone I knew personally, a strong and willful person, gone just like that

I use to be a fun person, taking life fore granted & jokingly dismissing everything like some game but this loss really hit home

Words can’t describe how paranoid and vulnerable I feel

I don’t know what to do, I’m f***ing scared

I don’t feel suicidal rn but I feel that suicide will get me one day

i know my addictions are bad for me. but i dont even know if i want to stop. i feel like i just cant and im already ruined

Sometimes I just wanna f*** some s*** up ya know

What were you taking it for

I FINALY FEEL GOOD

Bipolar disorder

the people closest to recovery are the people who believe they're beyond saving

what do you mean?

if you think you can control your addiction you're basicaly in denial and are less likely to make an attempt to quit

but when you have nothing to lose and think ''fuck I just hit rock bottom'' ...that's when you'll start thinking bout flushing your d**** down the toilet and cutting off your plugs.

that's how steve-o got sober

Just looked it up, thought it was a mood stabilizer.

do you take anything for sleep?

No my sleeps fine

I dont want to feel like this anymore man I just dont Idk how one changes their mentality how do I get rid of this I dont want it in my brain anymore it hurts

I dont want to believe I am a burden to everybody I know I dont want to believe Im bothering people I dont want to believe nobody around me cares about me I dont want to believe I do nothing but inflict hurt and pain but these thoughts they do not go all I can do is despise myself, everything in me tells me that I am not a good person, not a good soul, not meant to get s***

My doctor was so worried about me he had the police check up on me a day after I told him about my mental state and with how caring that seemed I couldnt help but let the thought of "I dont even deserve anybody being that worried about mean" overtake everything in my mind

I want to be healthy, this is not good for me man, I dont want this anymore

she called me seconds after I posted this and it made my day... wiped away my tears and accepted the call... I mean wow

Your all great people

sunlight...

Patience is the answer to alot of this s*** for me

honestly don’t even want to be alive anymore

relatable

I’m glad you’re getting help man.

Keep striving. ❤️

Stephen Hawking