so tired of this s*** man

ill feel ok and everything’s alright and then there’s just something off and ill go right back down to the pit

it’s amazing there’s people that genuinely don’t deal with this

at least it’s not a phase i guess, wish it was

It's not that at all. She thought I was weird during my really awkward times. I'm just a nervous, awkward wreck and people really don't f*** with that. I lost friends as a result of this. I should have known better instead of reaching out to her to check up on her.

Biggest lesson I learned might be: People don't care about your backstory. They're quick to write you off as soon as you show any weakness.

one of the hardest things to learn is that people don't care about your backstory, why you're so messed up, weird, and awkward. they only see you for the weirdo you are and write you off forever. nothing you say or do to redeem yourself will ever be enough because you're always a loser to them.

they won't care that the physical and emotional abuse you faced in the past turned you into overthinker questioning every single little choice you make. they won't care that your overthinking causes you to make stupid mistakes resembling incompetence.

Test ran my new hanging method and I'm 90% sure this will work. The only hard part about it is getting over instinct. Not sure on my date yet but it'll be a few weeks from now

I hope you okay fam

I need to stop isolating myself

I feel like I need to reach out to a rehab center or a support group

I just need to be part of something bigger than me that lets me open up and helps me support people with similar issues.

been feeling like life's passing me by

that makes two of us

pls dont

breaking up was the best thing i did this year

Yeah i feel you man, atleast you learned now, you gotta be careful with those you share that type of information with
Some people just don’t care and act like they do cus they’re noisy or they want to use it against it
You just gotta find someone that truly cares about you and your problems

I'll give you my contact info if you need to talk.

is this normal in this thread

this is highly concerning

Doesnt have to be like this, yo. Youre always free to PM me if you need an ear, Ill give you my discord or something, Ill be happy to do that. Just dont go down this route...

Facts. I opened up to the homies about how an ex abused me and niggas laughed me out the room. I barely speak to them anymore and if i do its nothing of substance

After years of saying I would do it, I deactivated my Twitter today man. I need a legit break from social media considering that I’ve been using them for years. I found myself today realizing that I feel like I haven’t been seen, like a sort of attention that I think I was filling with social media but that s*** was not good for my mental at all. IG is next but it’s hard cause I’m a photographer, actor and model and you kinda need it in that career path, so I’ll probably just delete the app. But I haven’t been happy in a while. I feel like I still don’t know myself and I really gotta take time to disconnect from all of it.

I’m tired of feeling like no one gets me

how’d you get into acting and modeling bro? im tryna do that too

Crushing on a girl at work. I haven’t felt this way about a girl since my last gf 5 years ago

This feeling is so crazy cus it’s so intense and it’s making me depressed that I never talk to this girl or I avoid her cus I panic when I see her

It’s all I can think about and s*** is f***ing with my head. Been spending the last 2 nights drinking by myself watching the Mandalorian

Ive been acting since high school, but since undergrad I’ve been doing theater seriously for about 3 or 4 years, and I go to acting conservatory in LA now. Modeling I got into cause my friends are fashion designers and photographers as well and usually put on fashion shows so I started modeling for them and I just do it like that. Right now I’m free lance cause of school, but once I’m done I’m signing to an agency.

If you wanna be a good actor, do theater. Take some classes and brush up and learn as much as you can and read books. Find auditions through sites like Backstage or Actors Access - but going to school for acting/theater will help you grow your skills in a disciplined environment. Get some good headshots, build up your resume by doing classes and workshops, and when you get some money start building a reel.

Modeling just take care of your look and wardrobe and make sure to get some dope headshots and body shots and start submitting to agencies or campaigns.

And save your money and be prepared to have the most inconsistent income if you wanna live off of this lifestyle

thanks a lot man
i been trying to get into it + music but i just been having setbacks just like all of us itt
also how come you don’t feel like yourself and aren’t happy rn?

we’ll all get through this man
love you all

LIFE SO GOOD RN

F*** this quarantine I'm at my mental highest I've been in years but stuck in the crib smh