I am special

Like there's something with me other people dont have

I think people don't like me cause they're afraid of me and my ability

Wish I could get a redo on what I went through 2 years ago. I dont regret it, but a lotta people looked up to me. A lotta people respected me. They still do, but it’s not how it once was. It made me the man I am today, so I’m not mad. I’m proud of my journey.

Like I just get real shy and s***, and there will be times where I’m in the middle of a convo with other people, and I feel like I should be saying something but I dont lol. You know what I mean?

No cap, I feel like I just get real self conscious when I’m high and just notice any little thing I do or what others do. Like I just look at people as people instead of who they really are as a person in my life.

End of the day, I’m still a pretty nigga these niggas can hate all they want. I’ll charm tf outta all these niggas hoes lol

No doubt. Sounds like mild anxiety. Weed can easily amplify whatever anxieties that may already live in your subconscious.

Temporary fix: don't resist it, and instead non-judgementally lean into whatever you're feeling at the moment. Slowly shift that focus to only the physical sensations you feel at the exact moment. The buzzing feeling you get, the way your eyes may slouch, etc. Should help with the anxiety and you'll enjoy the high more. Don't half ass this, mindfulness is a surprisingly effective tool.

Long Term: Self reflect, be honest with yourself about how you feel while sober, so things like this dont ruin your highs any worse in the future.

My dad abused me cause he never grew up with a life like mine. He was poor, while I was not, he was angry and jealous and took it out on me.

My older sister would do the same cause she saw my dad doing it and thought it would be fine to join in

I was bullied a little because I was small and pretty easy to target cause I never thought to fight back. Not much use.

I get my heart broken because not only do I get attached to easily but i'm desperate but I let s*** slide too often. gotta stop that. I will

I always say I hate people and they're the main reason I wanna kill myself but not all people are like this, most of it even isn't my fault. there's also plenty of great people out there I just either haven't met them or I dont pay enough attention to them. I gotta set my priorities straight

You've consistently been one of the realest users I've seen on here since Klive lol. You're a survivor. You'll take this built up strength and resistance and go on to do great things. The energy is already there.

Wow. Exactly this.

that aint true B, please eat something

let the man fast for a while

Remember guys, never stay too hungry, too angry, too tired, too comfortable, too uncomfortable or too sad for too long. It's as simple as that.

Doing good deeds as Arthur Morgan is really the best source of fulfillment in my life at the moment

RDR2 can be wholesome as hell

I'm more of a Assassin's Creed man myself, Ezio was that motherfucker

I'll eat something a lil later im not very hungry rn

I feel like I missed the boat on AC. I wanted to get into it from the beginning but things kept getting in the way. The sequels worth me getting into the series this late?

I have noticed in the past when I didnt have this problem is when I just focus on the high, then I’m good. It’s like I’m just stuck in my head lol but next time imma just get out of my head. Harder than it sounds, like I’ve done it before so

It’s kinda cool, but idk I just need to work on holding meaningful convos when I’m high lol

Much harder than it sounds. Have you ever tried meditation? It can help you for sure.

Just get the Ezio Collection. Thank me later. Disregard every other game for the moment, these are the classics ass classics you'll love no matter what. Start with ACII, YOU'LL LOVE IT

If you're into conspiracy theories it's gonna be your fav game ever

Yeah I use Headspace. Used up my free trial. Been meaning to get the subscription but I forget. I’ll get it soon

I can’t even meditate without getting all tensed up. I can’t ever sleep either. I just want to live a normal life

I tried to eat earlier and I literally couldn't. Like I took a bite and I was so nauseous I couldn't get through half. Maybe I'll try later

honestly I only feel comfortable itt rn so i'm only staying here for now

I already post here a ton