I consider 99.99% of people itt my friend

Today was a good day. I wish I had more days like these

i feel so alone

I was sad as s*** before I turned on this gunna man

Odyssey was ok. But the peak has long gone

I feel uneasy rn dont know why

I can barely recognize myself anymore

I'm passionate bout music but I dont wanna gamble my life on it.

does that mean I'll give up trying to get better? no.

does that mean I need a different way to make money till my hobby becomes my job? f*** yeah

I hate mirrors

I never ate anything

bro what the f*** is up with my appetite

is this really the latuda withdrawals or more?

I'm not even gonna lie I like getting skinnier. I dont like eating. Might be getting an eating disorder or something. Not sure

page 195 and page 196 really show my bipolarity

happy friday guys

god damn you know what my childhood sucked lemme just say that

It doesn't define you unless you let it define you, you're stronger than that

Eat nuts man, they're really great for you, easy to eat, salty enough to make you thirsty and extremely nutritive and potent in minerals that make you feel good

Last day or second to last day of Ramadan here, breaking fast in a little less than seven hours

Second straight day of positive vibes and happiness. I feel good even without doing anything differently

Writing is really therapeutic. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest with each page I write.

I got PTSD from the time spent on psych wards

I know I shouldnt share this with anyone but where I'm from psych wards are like 30 years behind the rest of the world.

I spent weeks with my arms and legs tied to a bed with only one of my arms free when it was time to eat and take my meds.

I got in fights with some terrifying people(throwing stuff at me and pulling out shanks) and learned to sleep ''with one eye open''.

I got beat up by male nurses and then shot up with d**** to knock me out. they even dislocated my shoulder.

I've been hospitalised 6 times and I went from bipolar to full on schizophrenic

all this s*** made me appreciate the simple things in life tho....like being able to eat the food I like, smoking as much as I want to, being able to go outside and take a walk, enjoy some silent ''me time'' by taking care of my flowers...list goes on and on...I'm still sick and sad but at least now I'm sick and sad in the comfort of my home and neighborhood.

/venting

I would like some shrooms please

Thanku ☺️