Pain exists to give us perspective. When we’re at our lowest, it’s the best possible place to be — we can only go up from there!!!

I wanna die sometimes too, bro. Hell, I was feeling that way earlier today. But let’s promise each other to keep going because the best has yet to come. We can’t even comprehend the gifts that are coming our way <3

You had an internship and you have school to look forward to. All good things— all things you should be grateful for. Keep your head up. Maybe find a part-time job in the meantime.

What really holds me back is my self loathing. I just really dislike the sight of my self and in turn this leads to me sabotaging the goods things in my life because i feel like i don't deserve them

you guys ever find yourself reminiscing about times that weren’t even that good but were better than the present anyways

like music not hitting the same to me anymore so I’m looking back at August last year where i put myself on to so many new artists and was so exciting about music but even during that time i wasn’t in the best place mentally

I've been lying to my mom that I've been seeing a therapist on campus, to be honest I just avoid them cause I can't open myself up to them for the life of me. I keep all that s*** inside me and let it fester. Like after my dad passed s*** has felt downhill. Life is going good and I'm happy at times, but I don't know if I can ever be as happy as I was when he was alive. The family just kinda changed, my relationship with my mom is different, and I'm a bit distant with my sisters. I've got good friends to rely on at least so I'm not alone in that regard. I've tried doing some d**** to numb stuff but it only made me more paranoid and anxious so I quit that s*** quick. I've been running more, and for a moment it kinda helps me forget about all this bullshit.

Because when your reminiscing on the past you’re distracting yourself from the future

sad

been tryna open my chakra crown if any yall know what that is

heard its a natural way to help get rid of negative strains

Man i cant even get out of bed. I havent eat in 3/4 days and i gotta take a flight in a few hours. I cant bruh

need you to take care of yourself
stay strong

its either self loathing or apathy, im on the latter rn we will see how long this lasts

that being said i guess im doing ¨better¨?

haha that's crazy man because i do the EXACT same thing. self-sabotage is the most f***ed up, ass-backwards s*** but i've been doing it quite a bit in the last year.

however! i'm getting better. i feel like i'm on my way up from rock bottom. and i think this is because im doing more things that im good at, doing things that i like, hanging out with people more. so my advice is to really hunker down and think about hobbies and jobs that you think you would excel in. start doing those and you'll build up confidence in yourself. the times in life where i've hated myself THE LEAST was when i was heavily involved in things i was good at.

as for friends... spend more time with them! if you dont really have any, check apps like meetup that have social events and at least try to make some.

do these things and you'll slowly start to build confidence and feel more settled in your identitiy.

Pretty sure I had a dream that triggered some kinda anxiety and now I just feel overall bad. Feel this s*** in my chest

paranoid

I want to slit my wrists B

Wish I was a kid again.

if i f*** this school s*** up again i’m hanging myself on god

anybody else be too depressed to shave

i deadass have a beard cause i cant bear to look at myself in the mirror

I find myself reminiscing on when I was at my lowest and s*** was awful, I don’t get it.

i cant even grow a proper beard lol

my s*** looks like i got pubes on my chin or sumn