Dont know what my mission is anymore

I wish I was desirable. It's a petty wish but I still want it

you ever just toss and turn an all night and cant sleep?

i feel like with the virus going on i feel like more down because im not going to work staying in more and not doing much like before all this i would go to work make money hit the gym im still kinda doing the same waking up doing weights at home but with the virus and lockdown etc i feel more closed in

maybe its because i have nothing to do all day it usually i have things to do

I was literally mentally cracking today. So much overstimulation and rapid thoughts. All the petty conflicts is too much. I need time to heal. I'm tired of pushing

So hard to sleep knowing what is going on right now

We'll never know until we're older

This is me rn. I used to maximize my days but everything is just empty rn. I’m gonna try and go back to work soon but still it doesn’t feel the same. Haven’t hung out with anyone in a while

be blessed and happy

I'll tell my story one day

So much for course correcting. My insides are on fire.

I feel so disconnected from my light

It's all I have

i'm not me

you may not be the best version of yourself but you have to be who you are now to reach the best version of yourself.

I truly believe that God's light will shine inside all of us

you're right

but i dont feel like any version of myself right now

worst self or best self

thank you though, i know i'll be back

Yeah f*** that. I'm getting myself back.

Wish I could get that cosmic shapeup lol

Woke up with pain in my eyes crying uncontrollably a couple nights ago

And i pissed my bed today thank god i have a plastic cover

Damn nightmares

Wtf is going

"mental illness stopping me from achieving my dreams and aspirations" gang tap in real quick

me

stopping me from literally everything

we will rise from this i promise if it's the last s*** we ever do 🤞