i want that feeling rn

fr man fake it till you make it and it actually works

turns out everyone hates themselves too really

Get better? For what?

I want that taste of happiness again but nothing lasts. Always an end

another wave of sadness hit yesterday

I thought of you. I was gonna come in this thread and say that I hoped you were doing good.

Because I know this s*** ain’t easy brother. I’m here with you

I turn 20 in a few weeks and I'm just now trying to turn my life around after years of garbage, and this year was really a test for me. I think it finally made me realize I gotta get my s*** together but there's just times I really see no point

Thanks for the thoughts and the post. It means a lot, fr. This my 2nd day clean from benzos and ngl I've had cravings but I'm fighting them

Keep fighting, champ

f***in depressed

feel like dont have any REAL friends

like yeh theres people i chill with but, can i rely on them? No. Can i trust them?No. do these mfers even have my back? probablt not

feel like i could disappear and bro not even one person would care/notice im gone

feel like i cant even be myself around people.... why do i have to try so hard to fit in

i'm pathetic I f***ing hate myself

I’m telling y’all the path to getting to a good place mentally is a hard one. I thought I was doing alright, but life been kicking my ass recently and it’s hard not to fall back into my toxic tendencies. I’m doing my best to be a better human being overall but that’s hard when it feels like everything including myself is working against me. We trying tho

i live my entire life in fear of everything

i need to try again to find anxiety medication because its getting really hard to try to live like this

I hate this

My therapist helped me realize how much I need social interaction. It's like I'm being eaten alive by my isolation

I jus wish I could delete all my memory of Naruto so I can rewatch it. Naruto is like the dopest s*** ever imo

I've never been in a relationship I've developed this whole thing where I wanna deny that I need love but at this point idk if I want love or not

The most interesting thought to me is if you kill yourself eventually, inevitably.....no one will care. People give you all these speeches about how meaningful life is and you're selfish if you commit suicide, but truly once you actually do it they'll try to disconnect and trivialize your death as soon as they can to make themselves feel better, which is understandable.

Obviously it's dumb as f*** to commit suicide hoping it will effect others but I guess what I'm trying to say is ultimately life isn't worth much to anyone. Like metamorphosis by kafka. You're either a burden to others or a profit. One of my cousins commited suicide and the way it was talked about was almost disrepectful and he was just a child. Never any care for the life he lived just how it effected them personally