How long do opiate withdrawals really last ???

I've been off and on and everytime I go hard for a couple days, then I feel guilty, try to quit, go through a week of withdrawals and then I'm back on em

with all this time I've spent going back n forth I could be clean by now if I was more disciplined about it and it's honestly frustrating...

tried to quit benzos cold turkey and I coudnt go for more than 6 hours

I cant function without em

anyways, we'll get through this. The only battles we lose are the ones we dont fight

I had this thought this morning that being awake is just like being asleep for me except I'm walking

One of my earliest memories is actually trying to feel like I'm alive and looking at something because everything is so foggy or like my hands are touching something. S*** is WOAT. I think its partly a symptom of my adhd cause my thoughts are constantly racing

I've been going back n forth with hospitals and rehab centers....I've lost faith in the system and anything it has to offer.

I just keep telling myself ''take your meds, you have a condition'' and every once in a while I end up killing the pain by abusing em but when I wake up after blacking out I'm like...again?? wtf this s*** has to stop

I know what I have to do to find peace but something keeps holding me back....always something slowing me down, always one step forward and 2 steps back.

I cant give up yet, I believe something great will happen soon....darkness isnt eternal in life.

doctor put me on Buspirone now for anxiety. hopefully this one can finally make me feel something

imma be alone forever

depressed as f***

god

f***

I'm repulsive

kill me pls

i used to be so emotional but now i just feel nothing anymore