Thanks bm

pretending life can get better by acquiring things that make me feel good

not living

happy birthday!!!!

ive lived with depression every moment of my life, a depression so formidable that every movement against it brings only pain, the release of death is the only way it ends

but im ok with that

like the dog in the burning house

this is ok

could barely sleep this week and last night was no different.

want the pain to end

promised someone really close to me I wouldn't kill myself but damn it's hard

happy birthday <3

thanks friend

just wanna lay in bed and kinda die

f*** is wrong with me

F*** this world.

man im drunk and high as s*** and imma be honest theres no point to this s***. like I find no meaning in life. that's why I dont try. people give up on you, the high lasts for so long then the withdrawal kicks in, i gotta work to sustain a life I dont even wanna live.

this s*** sucks. I got one or two people I love and thats what keeps me going but man its hard

s*** aint easy being bipolar. like life on extra hard mode

still so depressed. Just want her back.

I dont see myself ever getting better. I've been by myself my entire life and thats just how it's gonna be the rest of my life, whether it's cut short or not. None of the medication I've tried worked, therapy hasn't been successful. Trying to go forward but honestly I dont even want to. Rather just give up. Dont wanna be here

dont know if I hate myself or love myself. seems everyone else hates me and i'm pretty repulsive but I still kinda have high thoughts of myself. Guess it sometimes gets to you though

really am worthless man

want to kill myself