im baked asf oh lawd

but I only smoked weed 3 times this last 9ish days... Im chillin

lol

i dont need it. i also love this super low tolerance i have now

im like 4 and a half monts off the weed!!! feels super nice but sometimes i miss the feeling of mindset that a good blunt would put me in… then i remember the bad part of it and stay sober…

ur dope plantas 🪴

thanks cuz I'm feeling real down rn

y is ur name plants

it's similar to my og name but i was turning over a new leaf (hehe) and well I'm vegan too so yeah it seemed like a fitting change

ngl if i didnt get into weed last year i wouldnt be alive rn

always like to read a thread and see ur vision on stuff. just feel the things your feeling, but dont overthink them, go for a walk or sum, sadness on a sunday can be overwhelming tho, me myself its just boredom today, feeling kinda numb, must be the alcohol from last nite lol

i got so wasted on every d*** las nite i feel like a good bender is good for the brain in moderation

if you smoke weed casually thats fine but using it to cope like i do is the problem i suppose

but either way it makes me feel better and it isnt hurting anyone ill take the stigma of being a stoner over the reality of having to live my life sober lmao

Many college students have gone to college and gotten hooked on d****, marijuana, and alcohol
Listen, stop trying to be somebody else
Don't try to be someone else
Be yourself and know that that's good enough

Don't try to be someone else
Don't try to be like someone else, don't try to act like someone else
Be yourself, be secure with yourself

Rely and trust upon your own decisions
On your own beliefs

You understand the things that I've taught you
Not to drink alcohol, not to use d****
Don't use that cocaine or marijuana, because that stuff is highly addictive

When people become weed-heads
They become sluggish, lazy, stupid, and unconcerned
Sluggish, lazy, stupid, and unconcerned
That's all marijuana does to you, okay? This is hov mom
Unless you're taking it under doctor's, um, control
Then it's regulated
Do not smoke marijuana, do not consume alcohol
Do not get in the car with someone who is inebriated
This is mom, call me, bye

yeah its a fine line . when i started i would be productive and unwind w it at the end of the day. but being high 24/7 holds u back fr

i mean i agree with what shes saying but on the other hand most of us arent frank or in franks position

what im saying is its easy to say "dont do d****" to someone who has the money to afford therapy

i made this comment in another thread but it costs me less money to buy an OZ of topshelf than one therapy session which is the problem lmao

like you shouldnt use d**** to cope of coyrse but its a double edged sword because a d*** is why im still alive

for me whenever i process my weed use and really reflect on it it makes me appreciate sobriety more for the clearmindedness

ye I'm getting better at putting the brakes on a pity party

yesterday was worse than today, mentally anyway. this morning i found a meaning in my physical suffering, and that is to just suffer in a noble way. i reminded myself of the memoir i read last week about Jean Bauby who suffered a stroke who left him with "locked in" syndrome, unable to do so much but blink his left eye. couple that with the Frankl I'm reading now and, yeah, puts it all into a better perspective

48 days sober helps too

who/what put u on to ur mindset?

last year i read one book, last month i read seven. weed had me sedated fr. rather have a clear sight of my pain and misery than be comfortably numb

its a trap tho fr

idk if i could pin it on one person or thing. i always been a curious guy, good in school and whatnot despite a dead avg iq.

actually i can pin my escape from depths of depravity (i could fill out that beatoff abyss iceberg with the most vile s***...) on psychedelics now that i think about it.

that s*** really helped me overcome the emotional neglect from my parents, turn away from the horrors i was exposing myself to on the internet in my early youth, and lean more into my sensitive and emotional side.

the d**** really just popped the lid on my entire experience of reality, opened me up to new ways of being, new ways of acting and reacting.

then a few years of therapy were like the icing on the cake.

i refuse to go to therapy. what made u deal w the annoying system of finding one and pull thru and commit? was it just psychedelics?