Maybe it’s due to my 2 year stint of isolation but I feel extremely suicidal right now

Woke up like I really failed my purpose if there was such thing

I realized it but it ended up being way too late spent my entire life fixated on it while simultaneously wasting away

I can’t kill myself right now because I promised to get my family out of poverty my little brother needs a role model I failed my best friends I lost so many people

deadass feeling the exact same way rn

just biding my time until i'm tired enough to fall asleep

Cutting doesn’t even feel relaxing anymore and that’s the only I could do right at the moment

Listening to music brings me the worst feeling of inadequacy too that was my passion this must be a sign or something

Not listening to but aspired to be someone in this s***

It’s deadass over

It got mad intense out of nowhere

Can’t even express myself right f*** it

Not high btw

gotta apologize to everyone beforehand if I go through with this

Don’t kill yourself dude.

Gon delete I’m buggin probably but o think about this everyday

Imma punch some s***

What’s stopping you from making a change today? Going out and chatting with someone, doing something productive, learning something, etc…

I don’t know what’s going on right now

Everyone sleep in the crib I’m scared

Bruh call the suicide hotline I probs can’t even help I’m just trying

I feel you, f*** it there’s no purpose and we probably got enough time to do something, failure lowkey isn’t real

We got time to make some kind of positive steps no matter how f***ed it all is, life is a lot of pain but please don’t act on these feelings

hit me really bad yesterday, carried over a little into today but not as bad. wishing you well @op

Honestly I don’t even know I haven’t really been thinking straight as of late but my usual answer would be there’s some brain blockage that made me incapable of doing those things I generally just felt unworthy due to me not having complete the important things I was supposed to be set out to do

Important things like what? And how long ago
Have you been keeping these thoughts and feelings bottled up or have you spoken to anyone about it? do you have anyone you can talk to irl?

Nah thank you so much I’m probably going try to go to an institution tomorrow I feel extremely off at the moment I just don’t want to worry my family for some reason they always stopped me from going to the hospital but at this point that’s the only that’s going to stop me from actually killing myself