But a nigga been going thru it, all my life I been taught to man up and basically ignore these feelings. Lately I’ve been feeling death creep up on me, everyday feels like the path toward my demise. I’m barely starting to realize that I have problems with d**** and alcohol for about over a year now, it seems to be the only thing to fill the void I have in both my heart and my mind. I didn’t make this post for sympathy which is why I’m gonna lock the thread. At the moment I just don’t have anywhere else to turn in the real world. Love you guys.