Has anyone else come to believe much more in the spiritual as of late or is it just me?

All my life I denied the existence of a god but due to some recent events and what not ironically 2020 has brought me to a inner peace and more in touch with the spiritual.

Not trolling and not here to prove anyone wrong or right

I just wanted to share my perspective and hear your guy's experiences

I don’t think there’s a god omnipotent being per say but there is like a multi dimensiaonl variables all throughout universe that ties together the fabric of space time of that makes any sense . Some manifested spiritual type dimensions beyond our understanding

What experience made you change your belief?

It was really interesting actually. I've been dealing with some form of cptsd/ptsd from some traumatic childhood experiences and since the age of 12 I think that I have been running away from my "demons". After a long year dealing with a breakup, depression, and death in my family I started to come to terms with a lot of my repressed emotions.

I had basically numbed myself from feeling for a long time and because of that I didn't really know who I was. I experimented with d**** and became addicted to anything that made me feel again. After a very strange dissociative trip on DXM ( Please do not do this) I experienced what I believed to be an ego death. I was not ready for that "death" per say but that kickstarted my spiritual journey.

After returning home from college for break, I started to fall into depression again and slowly realized that I had never had a sense of self love. Because of some physical problems ( which I believe to be caused from trauma) I became really interested in stretching. Sometimes I would stretch for hours at a time specifically targeting points of tightness like the upper back and hip. After one session where I was stretching for 2 hours I had somewhat of a emotional catharsis.

I started to ball my eyes out for the first time in years. At that moment it felt as if all my repressed emotions came to surface and that I could see clearly for the first time; past all my clouded judgements, anxiety, and other illusions I've used as coping mechanisms over the years. I was able to forgive my parents, my ex girlfriend, and so many people in my life that I had unfairly resented. After that, I was able to forgive myself for making these mistakes.

After looking some things up online I realized that I was actually practicing some form of eastern yoga called Kundalini which is thought to bring out raw emotion in people and "cleanse" themselves in a way.

I'm very into the idea that ancient civilisations know more than we think. They had access to knowledge and technology we have forgotten. That humanity was a lot more advanced earlier on and this civilisation was wiped out. A big difference is they and older civilisations were far more spiritual and understood more about the universe and our lives after death.

I just believe in karma that's it

Also DMT, I think what we see on DMT has something to do with the afterlife.

I believe in traditional spiritual in the African sense and the power of the universe and conscious and unconscious thinking have an effect on your life

I've become more soulful and energy bound this past year especially because of my shroom and acid trips. I've figured out a lot about myself and spreading good vibes and love to those who need it and how to get love back.

It feels good and I've felt more clear headed and open minded since.

After experiencing this release my life changed completely. Food started to taste good again, music sounded so alive, and I've never felt more in the moment. I started to love living again. It really felt like I became in touch with "god". Its like their was a calling inside myself and I felt like I knew who I was for the first time my whole life. It felt like I was a kid again, but my love for life wasn't due to my unknowing or naivety. It feels as if god spoke to me. It really changed my perspective and I've never felt more motivated to give back to the universe instead of take.

Its really cool because so many people have experienced similar things during DMT/DXM trips and near death experiences which cannot be fully explained by science.

mainstream science is playing catch up with what ancient civilizations have known for years

Happy you feel better OP

I don't believe in a God, but it's always nice to hear people getting strength and positivity from their beliefs. It really helps a lot of people to cope with problems

dissociation is crazy, its like all your problems are on display in a gallery and you can walk around and observe them

My trip was like this portal to hell, I demonic faces and right before I woke up their was 3 black hooded figures standing over me while I was laying down in my bed. Craziest part is that I was not scared in the slightest due to the disassociation

@Marcellus_da_lawd THANK YOU

I’ve experienced that cleanse/cry too. It’s brazzzy . Welcome