high key tho i don't wanna have to screw anyone else

my thing is just that we keep reconnecting every time we stop talking and it feels like a pattern that's hard to break. she hmu again last year and i think it's approaching a year since we stopped talking but i'm still not over it

high key worst part is i google her name sometimes and i found out she had a podcast and made some music that's not really mindblowing but still relatively good and it kinda got me f'd up cus i always thought i would be more talented than her in that regard. i've thought about making music for years but never did.

another thing is she has a job and a college degree and she's 2 years younger than me. she seems like she's making a lot of moves. she was talking about getting her own apartment and saving up so she can take a master's program 👀

At the level I'm at, I'm not even sure if I'm gonna finish my undergraduate program since i always f*** it up. i would have quit a long time ago but my mom insists i get my degree i never had any huge goals or aspirations so it always seemed easy to go in line with that plus it seems smarter and ig she's paying for it anyway

anyway all that s*** aside, it's like she keeps moving ahead and i'm moving also but considerably slower.

when we dated she was the more attractive between us and i always felt like she was never that attracted to me or there were guys she would have preferred to be with. at the time i feel like my game sucked and i probably couldn't have gotten with another girl if i tried and now my game is better but i still feel like i'm really not interested in being with anyone. lowkey i think i prefer d*** anyhow

i just kind of want to go for a period of time without having to think about her idk what's up with me

Talk to other women. Make a tinder account

Learn to accept it. It's okay to be sad about it but just accept that its over and keep doing you

i feel like my p*** addiction contributes to it

every time i fap it's like i make the obsession stronger

but it also depends on what i fap to

definitely cut out p*** it makes everything worse

it's weird cause i get a lot of contradictory information about it but i think i definitely feel better if i abstain for long periods of time

Time will heal all. Just cope with it and be sad until one day you're not.

As long as you arent having unhealthy thoughts, just keep going thru the motions.

yeah you're probably right

but for now it would be f***ed up if i didn't finish my degree

i've failed this s*** waaaaaaaay too many times

Block block block and time

my thoughts can be kind of unhealthy

i need to get my s*** together

get a woman that looks like her

first sentence in op is the answer

there is no other way

cmon

Exercise, diet, get a dog, get outdoors, focus on self improvement- which is to say stay busy

Then it's a waiting game. Good luck

yeah that's good advice actually. i feel like i need to focus on myself and maybe take more chances to hype myself up

i'm really not into casual s***like that

plus i feel like i keep looking for relationships in the weirdest places. the girls at my uni don't really pique my interest like that

bro said he prefer d*** now lmaaao. nothing wrong with that but i am howling

I just had a bad breakup too….hmu?

Your post is kind of unsettling. You’re more concerned with comparing each other’s lot in life. Are you sure you loved her, or are you just kicking yourself because she is successful and poised to do even better?