I'm sorry I've spammed KTT with my story. And the irony is that more I think about it, the more troubled I get and I have to talk about it more. No-one believes me irl.

I feel guilty about the Las Vegas shooting. I posted some psychotic s*** online just before it. I said that people that have died cos of me are heroes and I got freaked out about nazis and that's how I freaked out everybody cos some people followed me online cos I'm famous kinda. I'm like an open secret among media people in the US.

And people have hinted I am to blame for the shooting. A big thing people do is they reference the number 23. I wrote a lot about the magic of the number 23 online. And the shooter Paddock had 23 rifles in his hotel room so that's another connection that maybe I am to blame.

So how do I get over this, or should I? I kinda wanna kill myself. I know a high place that I can jump off of. If enough people think I should kill myself, perhaps I will do it.

OP has schizophrenia

you need to forgive yourself and disconnect from the internet/media to practice doing so. you aren’t a horrible person. i can’t remember how long the vegas shootings were but i’m sure it was a long time ago. everyday i wake up, i ask myself how I can be better than yesterday. if we can do that in a day, i’m sure you can see yourself as a different person in months yet alone years. only thing required is practice

and stay out your mind, it’s a very powerful tool to get us to believe that we are the worst people in the world. ask yourself if this was a close friend, would i treat them horribly or with compassion? then do that for yourself

if you’re really struggling with something deep mentally, then please seek out help

23 is jordan’s number not yours

I don't understand why u feel guilty.

ktt2.com/i-was-able-to-save-the-world-cos-of-kanye-73175

Cos I posted a bunch of stuff online just before the shooting. I wonder if the shooter saw my postings and that's why did the shooting. And Fox News and others have hinted I am to blame. For example Fox News posted that my city is the 8th deadliest city in Europe, even tho it's nowhere close to that. They posted it cos I live in that city so that's like a reference to me.

But yeah I should stop posting. This is my last post on the subject I swear. Unless someone asks me about the subject. I just post about Kanye and stuff from now on.

LeBron's too. That was one of the connections that I pointed out on KTT1.

OP please seek mental help

If what all I saying is true u need some confidential therapy
If u losing ur goddamn mind u still need some therapy
Mfers on a forum can't help u here

Idk what 23 means but I wear an mj jersey everyday

I remember you posting about this before. Hope you’ve talked with a psychologist as it seems you may be needing some mental help.

Therapy is kinda useless. All they can do is prescribe medicine. I mean I guess it's helpful to talk about the thing with someone. I wish they believed all of my story tho, but they don't. My story is too unbelievable.

I mean... you also said you saved the world with Kanye on a Kanye fan forum.. you're not exactly making it Easy to believe any of the things you say, it hurts but you should really seek help

kanyetothe.com/forum/index.php?topic=7020586.0

Look at the one reply. #ProtectDoinker. That's saying protect me, ironically. People knew I caused the shooting. This kinda s*** is why it's bothering me so much cos people do blame me for the shooting and hint that I caused it.

If you didn’t pull the trigger you don’t have much to be upset about.

I remember the day before MJ died I made fun of him. For a while I felt guilty but I realized I had nothing to do with it I was just being an a******.

Everyone is an a****** at some point in there life, don’t let that get to you op.

Also see professional, ktt2 ain’t the to help.

Rooting for you OP!

Thanks all of you fam. The replies on this thread have helped me a little bit

op if u rlly believe all this u need to get mental help

ive had my fair share of crazy outbreaks and in the moment i rlly believe it - it isn't till the next day that i realise how illogical and detatched from reality i was thinking/acting.

this narrative that u wrote in op is a clear case of medical anxiety and is not accurate to reality.
the problem is that the crazy person doesn't realise he is crazy so its hard to tell them this but aslong as u dont do nothing permanent/stupid u should look for help

thanks and wishing u the best op. theres nothing in this life that isn't irreversible except death

I want to make it clear to you that doinker is just a user on ktt and discord

also op
humans are not to be blamed for their thoughts
every single human gets both positive and negative thoughts
your thoughts are not you

if you react or act on those thoughts then u are to blame. so if u thought about shooting someone but u didnt then u did nothing wrong because u are not at fault for your thoughts. only acting on them makes u good or evil

teach me numerology if thats what it is

Las Vegas shooting wasn’t your fault
To go through with that takes years of mental conditioning

He didn’t just see what you posted online and flip a switch and decide to do that

It’s not your fault
You’re okay OP, I wish I had a cool friend like you