So tired of verzuz man please leave that s*** behind

Swear I’m clairvoyant

Well, the iceberg charts got me again.

F*** covid

That Danny DeVito standee f***ed me up

I think I might go full scale be a degenerate until my brain turns into mush and my body finally gives up

But I might also just be sleepy

Wtffffff thought it was Monday this entire time :(

Actually think i still might be in this dpr phase like idk
Ever since that last incident, time really dropped

Its all grey
Everything still feels like a dream
And for my own sake, i cant feel s*** and cant remember nothing, yesterday is just completely faded

I think i. Just need someone to talk to
I mean saw a loved one, trying to kill themselves, literally saved their lives as their body was almost lifeless
Every paramedic thanked me except the family
I was too much in shock couldn't react,my mind was completely numb and blank

She literally blamed me for anything
And said i was a very disturbed human... And how i lied about everything meaning it was my fault everything happened when it had nothing to do with me, The past trauma's

I never got a thanks
Only via message
3 weeks later
To tell me i should f*** off for da rest of their life
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Idk
I thought saving someones life was a good thing..
In 2021
Everything is bad

Seen so much pain
And yet i still cannot articulate the traumas anf struggles
I really can't

Not alone really

And none wants to lend their ear either
Shoulder
Heart?
Or atleast 5 seconds to pretend u Care?

But it's too much
Niggas cant even listen
Talk about how they wasted they last nickel in. A bar and can't afford to buy themselves a joy ride on a hooker

Every day
Every damn day
And by the end of tje day ill be wondering if everything was a dream again
And ill end up reconfirming that im indeed just scraping the bottom

Whatever soul i had left
Im sure it's out there

I collapsed mentally very hard those 2 weeks
Idk what happened aftee
But the only sound that i hear and that holds my attention is the sound of wind

So strong and connected to this sense of freedom and also a certain calm ive never experienced before
Its just blank and silent
Like it tells me ur here but not here

So much loss, ptsd, death,trauma in under 12months.....

My depression score was 82/100 very critical
Thoughts stretch further than reg depression; suicide idealization and self harm
This patiënt is under major heavy alert

Weird thing is my adhd doesn't allow me to really take it in
And 2nd
Literally none is asking me for anything,not even my family

Like im on auto pilot
My personality is just blank
Whatever ur mood is right it on my Paper ill try adapt
Im useless and lifeless
Yet people seem fine with this.......🤔

ok. covid kicking my ass

My sister really drank the last of my Cranberry juice smh

I’m working on dying

its my birthday

If I could start over again I would

i never act like it but deep down im terrified

digital sunset

@iCarly_Japan @Victorious_Korea did you get unbanned ?

How tf did wendys do 4 for 4s make it make sense