It's not even dark yet

today i got to meet a lot of special humans who have been in the hardest predicaments . teenagers and adults who have suffered .

i pray i can do this forever .

do you ever look at other people's shadows?

revenge is sweet

@Monkai

Knicks win on this sad day

This is Monkai's universe. We're just living in it. 😔

So sick of college and having to pretend I don’t hate every waking second of this s***. People asking how I’m doing like I’m about to unload on them how I’m talking to fake people all the time, eating garbage food, doing the most boring reading and practice problems I’ve probably ever done in my life and I can’t focus on anything.
I’m sick of friends and family trying to HMU asking me to come out when I deadass just don’t want to socialize with anybody until I graduate. Like I wouldn’t care if it weren’t for the fact that I’m expected to be fun and socialable all the time when I literally hate my life right now. And not hate my life like some depression s***, I literally just only hate college, I know I’ll be fine once I graduate.

Can’t think

Been wanting to do it bad

Can't wait to be outta this b****

Emailed my ex I havent spoken to in years cause i watched that movie Waves. Life is just so fleeting, no reason to hold grudges or cut people out.

Idk i just hope she matured like i did.
Yeah if i was taken I wouldnt have emailed her but thats not the situation im in. So f*** it why not apologize again. She's not gonna respond anyway

Maybe ill start believeing in good karma even though I always try to do good by people.

Feel like everyone hates me besides my family. so f***ing alone its killing me. where i live is f***ing mundane and grey.

good days will come but how lasting is anything? i dont know what my future holds at all

jaden smith prolly the most slept on musically.

what a horrible day

Kobe....

Idk why i feel like this but trying to look positive tho

Need this rest.

What’s on my mind?

How much I hate regular old people.

Jerking off after being on the phone with dad

my past few weeks have been such rollercoaster of emotions like goddamn
this girl just keeps irritating me, shoving her own damn troubles straight into mine, clipping me onto them and dragging me through the mud while she is blasting me for something thats way out of my control....

girl had the audacity to smack my car door in my face after i asked her 100 times wtf is up in the car to then send me a f***ing stupid ass message like fr naaah u couldve told me in the car instead of shoving a door in my face and making me ride home 50 min again, go kiss ur own ass in the bathroom as u writin lullabies on the toilet paper

like a nigga cant even be sick in peace or she wants to play puppetmaster on my ass then shes mad i say "no"
"u bring me out of my comfort zone,ive never had a boy whom i had to work for, i usually get what i want"
like idc, i know u are beautiful,sexy,smart and that any boy would fall in line for u, but if u want someone to kiss your ass 24/7, be available 24/7 then go for them weak ass niggas lmao

s*** is gettin too much man

So tired of it all

Poop

S*** was like an hour later, I can't postpone my s*** cause of him.