He could only handle half, too

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I want to have a job where I don't have to actually do anything besides thinking and maybe talking to people

I'm lazy as f*** but I'm kinda smart

All that said I don't find myself motivated by work enough to be a professor or a PI, maybe just like a professor ig who doesn't do research if that's a thing

It's time for me to start a social revolution

The self sufficiency revolution

I call it the middle finger up movement. Cus it's f*** everybody but me

small ass theater

If I go out then I have to exert an immense amount of energy to put on a mask and filter myself from seeming catatonic and autistic

If I stay in then I have to isolate myself from my familial relationship that is continuing to fray at the seams

Calibrating myself towards accelerating my move out process is one thing, but its hard not to despair over it feeling like one big zero-sum game in the grand scheme of things.

No one gives a f*** about my project and I'm not mad at all

I guarantee my project is a big mindfuck and these people don't see the vision

F***ing genomic people. Cell Biology is way cooler

Protect your brain.

Here's a monolog of my thoughts

Shut up
Shut the f*** up

Just stop

You're dumb

You're literally rworded

F*** it

I don't care

Stop being a b****

You're gay

Is this normal? Like 90% of my thoughts are negative as f***

I'm batshit insane

I can't wait to go to my rehab meetings next week

My therapist is literally one of my best friends

I have friends but i rather never talk to them and just talk to myself

Am I a narcissist?

Being alone is the best

I'm actually funny as f***

that girl was something, too bad she had a bf, at least i shot my shot

"I can't remember anything unless it comes in the form of a sound, image, or sensation"

"So basically 99.99% of anything worth remembering"

"You're a dumbass"

"From here on? U mean ur not done playing guitar? If there was ever a time to unlock Astral projection it's now"

If you're wondering wtf is wrong with me, I'm at a retreat for my PhD program listening to people sing hotel California

Like it doesn't get worse than this

Like I wanna now make a school exclusively for everyone but white people and we will just teach our students to murder All white people

Ik there's some cool white ppl but u must pay for this

I hate happiness

I want to fight

you should take a nap bro

Oh u wanna hear my impression? Here's my impression. I DONT GIVE A F***

I'm drunk

U ever work on something for 4 years and realize it was all a waste of time

I wish I could redo my life