i think and feel that i am dangerously & uncomfortably out-of-touch with and dissociated from reality.

need a haircut but i owe my barber money

low key might b timely to start winding-down. the oncoming days are other days, i supposed. hopefully pleasant ones..🙏🏿

i feel so misunderstood. in so many different ways..

superspeed's prolly the most aesthetically pleasing superpower.🤷🏿 idnno..

i believed what they said on the internet about enlightenment and suffering being "a choice" in the past. but at this point i think that i'm clearly suffering. i'm not just in pain, i'm suffering. i guess i've just been approaching the conditions of my life w acceptance of the inability to invoke change to end my hardships. i must endure, i suppose..

-- oh well tho'. who knows..maybe i'm getting exactly what i've asked for from life. because through these crises: i think that i am experience rapid evolution and character-development. however, i'm not doing well with progressing in society in terms of garnering a healthy amount of finances to support myself and survive while living a sufficiently healthy lifestyle.

this sux, for now.
i'm hoping, begging, and praying for the day i can be satisfied w my positioning in life. i'm not asking for happiness. just, satisfaction. joy.

/ / i had a great day today tho'. thankfully. i am blessed indeed.

i'm waiting until about 1:30AM to start trying to sleep. my mind is in a state of unrest. there's things that need to b done & thought about and i feel as though my soul commands me to do what's best for us through transference of vibration. thnx, buddy..^·^💗

1:11AM
40+ consecutive hrs?
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I’m obsessed

🖖🏿👍🏿😍:

With what

my ex

It’ll be ok

i prefer to have feel like i actually have a choice rather than feeling forced to do something.

/ / i'm trying to get peeple to understand what they need to. everyone is different. i believe that these things take time..⌚🙏🏿

• patience: much easier said than done though. honestly..

Tuna

I gotta execute the vision

That's what's on my mind

so i don't have work until 4 td. it's a 6 hour shift at most bc i usually go home early. i'm feel like i'm sorta hoping for the day to pass quickly but i'm not fully sure if that's what i truly desire. i've got plans for thursday but in terms of "the bigger picture," another tortuous session @ work could b a good thing for me in the long run.
i really really hope i reap the benefits of all my hard work and good deeds.

@santa pay wut u owe!

i might die from the fall..
#days 🌆

i think i'm gonna die..

off xanz rn.

What’s your vision

I've been making like lofi chamber pop (think lana del rey but more bedroom pop) for a few year.

I have 2 finished scripts on my computer.

My ex said I just sit around waiting for a big break and she's not wrong so now I'm about that action

martin had a dream, i had a nightmare.

/ / #np mr. sᴏʟᴏ ᴅᴏʟᴏ by ᴋɪᴅ ᴄᴜᴅɪ..
"when will i. ever learn. from the words in my songs. I'm. mister solo dolo.."

i actually believe that quality help from others and your individual intellectual capabilities are the most crucial factors involved in the process successfully achieving a goal..