When will it stop? Few months that I’m feeling decent and then it starts again. So sick of it

One thing I find so odd

Is that I have more friends in the big cities, than I do in my hometown/village

Like I only really talk to older folks in my village

But It seems that whenever I go into the big cities, I genuinely connect better with everyone,all ages

Like I could be on da street with whomever and just have a nice 30min Convo with em
In my village that s*** rarely happens lmao

Specially youth
I know the youth in my city is very conservative and s***, they prolly "scared" of talking to a black guy, like kids will speak easier as am more unique/nuisance to them

While in other cities damn, youth be swarming from all sides

Tbh I find it sad in one hand cause what I do, I also did for the youth, give em some entertainment, be a dope role model to em, teach em about society and people

And you'd think the big cities are more difficult to *conquer "

But damn it feels like in the big cities my presence is alot more appreciated,or they're more outspoken about it

Am sure they love it in my village the youth, but they really too scared or really dk how to approach me

Add on top of that that I got a pretty known anti racism account on TikTok, as a black men living in a conservative city

That will prolly scare some kids away too

Like in a sense, it's as if my presence/personality is just too big for my village

My new philosophy is we are living in a hell realm and the purpose of this life is to grow stronger smarter and wiser

One of the core beliefs is pleasure is a bad thing and we shouldn't strive to obtain happiness from pleasure

@ Wet Wipes

We don’t need flavors fam wtf now my ass feel minty smfh

You’re right, I fear

What I'm still confused about is who is the higher power? The Christian god? Are there higher gods or is it rly jus the one we all fear

I feel this.

Speaking on happiness...you can't go after success and happiness at the same time.

You need to pick one or the other or go after success, win, and then go after happiness.

I'm happy I aint waste my time with these hoes ong

Semen retention all day everyday over here.

I don't even know how men in America mess with these crazy ass women out here.

No passport bro but if you want a woman worth a f***...get your passport. S*** if you want to go to a place where men are treated like humans then go get your passport.

Bro said I did a lot of work

I work maybe 3 hours a day

That realization that it's not about working a lot of hours.

Just staying locked in and knocking out a lot of work in 3-4 hours.

I can't wait to get a real job, do well get promoted and eventually run the world

And remember...there is no real competition out here outside the top 1 to 10%.

this ain't nothin.. but its all i need.

You have to find your truth

But there's definitely a definitive truth, it can't all be true cus these different religions contradict each other

You’ve been mixin’ liquors tryna get me gone?

hate it here

Damn, I’m feeling kinda woozy 🥴

i couldn’t be any happier and man does it feel EUPHORIC

You have some hard ass gear.

Definitely keeping a eye on your brand once I'm in my retire from working and making music/art all day era.