Last couple of months increase my relationship with him.
That being said, family ain't s*** for the most part...took that off the most important things in my life this year
Yea life be some bullshit much of the time, having that faith in God keeps a man sane and ultimately that faith could be the difference between eternal salvation and more suffering, who knows lol
Im ngl i got scammed for 3k this year and im more f***ed up about the homeless dude i shoulda bought a hotel room for on this one cold ass night
I have no doubt if i did the right thing and bought that room for that dude i wouldnt have gotten scammed
Im also pretty sure my license is suspended and the government thinks i live in an entirely different city than i actually do
U know what I find powerful;
When a whole group of people, wanna get you, but that person is alone
They need to gang up on one mofo
But not even that they dare to do
I just heard this beautiful quote;
It take a whole gang of 10 insecure niggas, to make one 1 "cool" nigga
Enjoy your coal tonight!

No cap I think ma poor upbringing has alot to do with that "anti abundance" sentiment I have
It's like what they "portray" is/was just too far from ma reality
I have this disturbing ability to just stop caring about anything
It's a gift until it's a curse really
Like it helps with focus and keeping in da zone
But when ya down bad and can't feel anything anymore, ya feel like ya doing crazy
I have this disturbing ability to just stop caring about anything
They make it easier than ever for you to do this too
It's a gift until it's a curse really
Like it helps with focus and keeping in da zone
But when ya down bad and can't feel anything anymore, ya feel like ya doing crazy
Bro its weird cus s*** will happen and ill get over it so fast, its a gift and curse but makes it harder to relate to others
They make it easier than ever for you to do this too
Yea its a symptom of post modernism but i also kinda always been like this
Man that clip of Lil Pump handing out PS5s and the mom acting super f***in rude and entitled is really a beautiful example of modern society
People aren't grateful at all
They cannot be happy or satisfied
They need more, fo absolutely no reason
And the worst part, that mom's daughter also started getting angry at Lil Pump
No manners
No respect
No etiquette
No gratefulness
PEOPLE BE BITING THE HANDS THAT FEED EM AND SHOW EM THE WAY AND I KNOW THIS FIRST HAND
People want it all these days
Without doing jack s*** for it
Like Lil Pump said, he was brought up poor af, even if someone handed him a basketball he would be the happiest kid on earth
And that's facts
People too comfortable like wtf
And the kids too cause they mirror they parents, start getting a big mouth and s*** too
Bro its weird cus s*** will happen and ill get over it so fast, its a gift and curse but makes it harder to relate to others
I know what ya mean dawg
Like for very heavy emotional s*** I had to learn how to really process it, cause usually it go away and then later on hit me like a brick wall
Another thing is prolly my ADHD/autism and the way it regulates s***
Another thing is, I think experiencing a lot of heavy s*** in life, sorta numbs u to smaller s***, it's like u can take alot more pain than the average person in a way, u categorize it better and easier
I know what ya mean dawg
Like for very heavy emotional s*** I had to learn how to really process it, cause usually it go away and then later on hit me like a brick wall
Another thing is prolly my ADHD/autism and the way it regulates s***
Another thing is, I think experiencing a lot of heavy s*** in life, sorta numbs u to smaller s***, it's like u can take alot more pain than the average person in a way, u categorize it better and easier
Yea facts, i also wonder if psychedelics have anything to do with it, cus that s*** is so like emotionally intense it almost teaches u how to regulate extreme emotions better. But a lot of it is also psychological, the ability to understand that s*** happens and its not the end of the world. Life keeps moving u know, imo even after death there is life, so i never rly feel fear about death or life events
Travel across the state to sit in a living room for 6 hours with family then travel back.
Maybe im getting old or im the grinch but damn bro!