Was f***ing around on youtube and saw a movie scene where a guy goes apeshit at his job. I thought it was funny so I ended up checking out the trailer. I guess I was already on edge because the s*** made me burst in the tears. The main character of the story is a retired wrestler who's trapped working in a deli job and is estranged from his family. The trailer made me realize that I've been having to live life like its a
rougelike survival game. Instead of actually enjoying the present moment I've been having to juggle multiple people's expectations in the hope of me getting back on my feet. I've had so much happen to me lately but I can't actually talk to anyone about it. Feels like carrying a mountain on my back, on top of trying to stay on the right path.