Dec 21, 2020
Rhysington
Dec 21, 2020
EinfinetOh lmao I have thoughts like that too but it’s not necessarily what I was thinking of when I wrote my initial post. I feel like stuff like that is ‘just’ a sort of existential angst. Like it’s just sorta frustrating or confusing to think of how random yet rule-governed life in modern society feels. So we have these feelings just below the surface of like, “what if I could just do some totally unreasonable s*** and make a scene JUST BECAUSE that would be an interesting break from the mundaneness that most social interactions are.”
Idk, that’s my 2 cents at least. I’m approaching it in terms of the mundane but it could also be anger/anxiety or any # of things. So swap the above for “what if I made a scene just because I feel so angry/scared/frustrated/confused about life.” I’m not sure if these types of thoughts are that big of a deal for most people, but some people of course do actually end up making random scenes (or worse) once they’ve hit a breaking point
Lol I’m not much of an angry person, but I think you’re right with the mundaneness thing. Like I’m usually the most pleasant person in public, I just begin thinking like what if I...wasn’t pleasant. Idk. But instead ima try and imagine being like, extra pleasant
- Dec 21, 2020
no colorHow long have you been dealing with this?
And what is your meditation practice like?
I been dealing with this since last summer, and my meditation practice is I lay and listen to some meditation music while I focus on my breathing and let my thoughts flow in and out until my mind clears